I just want to cry...

[Sosaku]

I'm friends with this guy and this girl from school...I'm in love with the guy. The guy (I'll call him D.) is in love with the girl (I'll call her M.) M likes D back, and is going to give him a chance next semester, however he acts like they are dating now, I'm not sure if he knows that I know what is going to happen...because he's kind of dense, however it hurts. M knows that i'm in love with D.

I want them both to be happy, mainly him though. And it just hurts me...When I got to school on Sunday, my heart dropped, and for about 10 seconds, I couldn't breathe, of course, i was thinking about what's going to happen soon...I think that was the cause of it.

Why does this happen? I'm this guys almost perfect partner, however...He wants a girl...It just hurts so much...:cry:

[Can'tHelpIt]

AWWWWWWW sadness but life will move on. your in high school. he's not your soulmate. I t pains me to say so though. Find another guy. AHHH the world is CRUEL!

[CoolGuyXD]

Sorry you are having a hard time. Life will go on and what ever happens happens. Hope things work out

[iWasBornThisWay]

I know how you feel, kind of.

What i would do is think about all the things in him that you life, think about them hard. Then go out and find someone who makes you feel just like he did or maybe even better.

:) Hope i was help !

[Giles]

I feel like I say this a lot, but there's nothing that you can do about it. The feeling won't get better any time soon. I must mention that you should be careful not to have an influence on their relationship, a very close friend of mine (straight girl) was interested in a bi guy that was dating a gay friend - she spent so much time fussing and, effectively, spying on them that the relationship failed and everyone ended up being miserable.

[Sosaku]

I do my best not to interfere, but...I feel that I am sometimes, so I try to back away, and they just won't let me...

[TheRev]

... 2 words ASK HIM.... or wait to see what happends

[Sosaku]

He knows I like him...he CONSTANTLY tells me he's not gay, its quite annoying...I've conformed to talking about girls, and having sex with girls, (which i've done and he hasn't) and all this "straight" talk...just because i try to not make him awkward...because he asked me not to...its just that...I care too much

[spw184]

Ive had some straight crushes in the past, I try to distance myself from them, and than I realize that they weren't anything special. I used to go to a "Science" school which was where all the socially akward people went. I went to public school and Realized that the world was BIG. There are MANY more types that what I knew. I kind of had the " Woman lives all alone for 30 years, falls in love with first man she meets" thing. But than after I was disillusioned, I learned that there are many fish in the water.

Some of you are going to call me a liar because of my recent posts but this new straight crush is not the same!! I dont know if this guy is bisexual or not!!! I cant tell what team he is playing for!

[idontusethisanymore]

Awww:/ Well, you think you really like him...but believe me when I say you will find someone else who's ever better. "Don't try and find love; let it find you". :)

[Sosaku]

When he gets mad at me, I think i deserve it, when something bad happens to me because of him, i feel that it's my fault, He yelled at me because he made a promise to this girl, and i know it, because i asked her first, but she told me to ask him, he rudely said, "If you needed to know, someone would've told you" so i was playing around, and saying that back to him for questions he'd ask me, and then one time he said, "Its a simple question, just answer it!" so i told him the same thing, refering to the promise, he said he can't tell me, so i asked why, then he yelled, "BECAUSE I DON'T WANT YOU TO KNOW!!!" out of spite, i almost told him i already knew, and that he was just being stupid but i respect him for it, but when i got mad, I felt bad that i got mad, and when people blame him for being an ass, i defend him...

I don't like it, but its an automatic response....

[Syvelocin]

It's something we have to live with. I know how it is, I'm completely hopelessly in love with my best friend of fifteen years. We're two peas in a pod really. First person my age I've met who is intellectually on my level. Brilliant, beautiful, unique. She told me she was curious but I feel like she's leaning towards straight... not that it would matter now, an ocean apart. But she knows I'm in love with her, and she's close enough to me that she was glad I told her. I feel even closer to her now, oddly. I mean, when we e-mail, it doesn't feel as distant. And I stopped thinking about her as much as I did.

Hold onto him. Be his best friend, because as painful as it is it's much better than not having him in your life. Honestly, yeah, since he reacts like that I wouldn't start getting into girls but I'd just lay off and give him air. Just work hard to keep that friendship. Caring about whether he's happy or not is thoughtful and a sign you really do care for him, so make sure to keep this friendship around. As hard as it'll get.

[Can'tHelpIt]

he seems like a dick if he trying to discourage your feelings

[Sosaku]

I'm fighting my hardest, but everytime there is a couple, i run away...and it hurts SOOO much more since I care about him so much, and she has cheated on him, TWICE and they aren't really together yet, and he has forgiven her, BOTH TIMES!!! it makes me want to cry SOO much.....but i'm fighting my hardest....

[nameless12]

in my opinion, your friend SOUNDS like a real idiot and kind of a pain in the ass, and his crush (M) sounds even worse, i mean if i had a girlfriend, and she even cheated on me ONCE, i wouldn't forgive her. how could he forgive her TWICE?!?! its just really..... stupid...

i think you should just forget the guy, maybe still be his friend and all that but not love him, if he has problems with M just let them handle it, you shouldn't cry or be sad, just move along :) just like everyone else says, im sure you'll find someone mush more better, you just gotta wait ;)

[Sosaku]

its just that...Its hard enough to break a simple crush, but I love him, that's harder...and sadly, I don't want to even though it hurts so much, because...when it hurts sooo much, i look like i've been crying even if i havent, this homophobe, will give me a hug...(he has said in a way he is homophobic) and Since he knows, and he wants be to my friend...i figure its better than finding someone else, when i know everyone else...and he's the best...he protects me...even if he's protecting me from myself, he does that...by a simple smile, or a simple text...he gives me a reason to wake up (besides class) he gives me a reason to get through english, (i have fencing with him) and while it hurts, and i know i should get over him...i'm preparing for graduation, where I'll say goodbye to him, since we are going to different (in face rival) colleges...I'll probably never see him again, and since he won't text guys, "because its weird" I'll probably never hear from him again, maybe...college will have something for me, I'll be 18, so i can go to clubs, meet guys...be happy...(it'll be so good to say "I'm happy" once again)