Mom

[Scoob]

It's been a while now, my mom passed away in May of this year. I honestly thought I had faced my demons and coped with her loss. For some reason though the memories just come back like a force. I just remember the times we played when I was a kid, when she sent me off to my first day of school, when she scolded me for being out too late with friends, heck I even miss the times she used to yell at me when she got upset.

Before I used to say "I wish you'd just disappear" whenever we'd fight. And my rash remarks ultimately caught up with me. I don't blame myself for her death, I just can't help but feel lost and bitter without her around lately. It's driven me to raid the liquor cabinet a few times (and I hate alcohol) just to drown the memories and make me temporarily happy. I know this isn't even close to most of the issues on here but I just needed to lay this out. Sorry if this seems garbled. I'm totally exhausted but keep replaying the memories which keep me awake.

[Bob_]

It could take years for you to fully cope with this loss. I can't imagine losing my mom, even if we don't get along well. So I can imagine how much you're dealing with. But there's always those memories you should be glad you could have while you had the chance. Cherish them, and remember them always. She wouldn't want her kid to be sad over her being gone. So smile over what you had, and do what you know is best, and move on with her forever being in your heart and soul.

[curiouse97]

wow! dont know what I wold do without my mom and dad. almost lost dad a couple of times heart problems. but hay dont fight the memories they are what makes you you. hang in thare.