Smeagol
November 27th, 2011, 05:09 PM
So I just feel like I have nothing to look forwards to in my immediate future. My main interest is caring for, riding, showing, raising, and training horses. I have a pony who is my best friend. But she is 35, and just recently lost an eye because she punctured it. I am so scared of loosing her. I used to ride horses, but my mom won't let me anymore because I have so much other stuff and so many other privileges. But they aren't things I asked for, are they? No, I think not. I don't think she understands how depressed I am. Also, I switched schools in 5th grade because of bullying. My private school doesn't have a high school, so I have to switch back next year! And then, it gets even better *sarcasm*. No friends, no date at prom, nothing fun to do, tons of homework, shorter sleep, and what if my pony doesn't make it through the winter. The only light in my day is eating and taking care of her needs. I eat a lot, and I find it a way to get rid of bad thoughts, and I also am trying really hard to develop an interest in cooking, but still..... what can I do?????? I am not suicidal but I am so scared and all......