wanting to overdose

[acryforhelp]

sometime life just feels so overwhelming that I think it would be easier if I wasnt alive. If I had my meds (they are being monitored) I would definitley overdose tonight. I have started cutting again and I feel like I am on a downward spiral once again. I am drowning and I am tired of trying to swim.

[BrokenButterflies]

Don't do it. Things seem really bad now, I can relate to that, but things really will get better.
I OD'ed about a year ago because life was so miserable that I just couldn't take it. My parents were fighting (verbally and physical) every day for months, and were dragging me into it as a weapon. The day I did it, my mom and dad had been fist fighting, and I finally got my dad to go into another room so he wouldn't hit my mom, and she was packing up her things to move across the country to live with her family. My dad was pissed off at the world, so he had me in that room for three hours screaming and yelling at me for everything imaginable. Something broke in me or something, I just couldn't take it anymore after 15 years. The second I could get away, I downed 28 Xanax and passed out about 20 mins later.
Long story short, I spent three days in a psych ward and got diagnose with depression (a total crock but whatever).
Things have gotten better since then, my parents don't fight as often, and when they do, it's not as intence and I'm not the their outlet. It scared and hurt them when I OD'ed.
My point is (as round about of a way of saying it as it is), is that their are better ways of making things better then doing that to yourself. It hurts, so bad I cant describe it. I couldn't breath or move and I felt like someone had lit my stomach on fire.

I don't know you, so don't know how to be of much help other then to say you can message me anytime if you wanna talk. I think I get where your coming from. (I'm sorry if this sounded preachy or disjointed...)

[Oath]

Let's talk about this. You are hiding what's on your mind. Don't do that, be open and honest and lets get through this. I would hate for you to do something like that. There are people here that would hate for that outcome. You might think of this as a fast solution, it isn't. We can take this step by step and figure this whole thing out. Whatever problems that you are experiencing in life right now, I'm sure that they can be helped. I just don't want you to take your own life.

[December]

Please don't do it. I'm sure things seem quite terrible right now but overdosing won't solve anything and there are people who care about you who I'm sure would be willing to help you swim to shore if you're tired of swimming alone, as you say. I've been where you are quite recently, and even though I'm not sure what your situation is exactly, I know that for every downward spiral there is an upward one, and things do get better. Hang in there

[acryforhelp]

So I really dont even know where to begin....My best friend doesnt know that I have started cutting again. I want more than anything to tell her so that I can have someone there for me but she is going through her own stuff so there is no way I am going to tell her. I wish I could though. This is all spurred on by a huge combination of things too difficult to explain.....

[December]

Maybe you and your friend could help each other... You know, you listen to her and she listens to you. If she's going through things as well she is likely a sympathetic ear, and sometimes helping someone else through their problems makes you not focus so much on your own. But if you don't feel like you can tell her, that's what we are all here for, is to listen, if you feel like talking about it all

[acryforhelp]

I ended up telling my friend and all she said is that she is disappointed in me. Not what I needed to hear.

[Fiction]

Overdosing isn't worth it. It has a very low success rate, and surviving that just brings you down even further, trust me.

You'll end up in help, but help that you could have easily got before you overdosed, and before you went through all the pain of going to hospital and your parents finding out.

If for any small reason you do succeed, then it's over. There's no going back once you're dead and there's no way to see the happy future that you probably have. Suicide is such a waste of a life that you could do so much with. As a teenager you have so much freedom to make your life go where you want it too.

I understand completely how you feel, but go and get help before you try anything. You never now how much better your life can get.

[antiabort]

i do not mean to promote illegal drug use, but have you tried using marijuana? It helps me if I am feeling depressed.