feeling guilty for feeling full?

[love is louder]

I don't have a problem with food per say but other people have a problem with the way I eat. I refuse to eat in front of people. And I always eat meal in the dark in my room. I calorie count but through curiosity mostly. I go through fazes where I hardly eat then fazes where I eat loads but that's just me.

I used to weigh 11st then stopped eating till I was 8.7st but then regained eating "normally"again pretty much straight away.

But lately I have been feeling incredibly guilty for being full. To the extent where the only time I feel better is when I make my self sick?
Anyone know what's happening to me!?

[screamtobeheard]

Sweety, it sounds like the beginnings of an eating disorder. In my opinion, the best thing you could do would be to get help for it now, before your life spirals out of control with a disorder. Eating disorders are some of the most painful diseases, and you don't want to experience one. Please try to get help by telling a parent, teacher, guidance counselor, or even a friend. Any support is better than none. Good luck, hun.