screamtobeheard
November 24th, 2011, 07:30 PM
I haven't cut in awhile, because when my boyfriend saw my cuts the last time...the look in his eyes just killed me. He's the only one who I'm not incredibly cautious around, about hiding all my scars and cuts and everything. No one else knows when I do it. But lately, I've been having the urges worse than usual to cut. For no apparent reason. I mean, yeah. I've been feeling pretty down. But I have no real reason to want to cut except that...I don't know, it's just like a compulsion. I'd think it was for attention, but it's not like I'd cut where anyone would know I'd done it, and I'd just make sure not to let my boyfriend know. I just kinda feel like there's something wrong with this.