I'm scared of dying

[AlmostHomeless]

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[StoppingTime]

Tell him that you feel uncomfortable with a gun near you & to put it somewhere farther away from you.

I wouldn't talk to him, but I would definitely try to speak to someone close to you about it, if possible. Just tell everything to someone who you know will listen. They really can help you.

We are always here for you too. Don't ever hesitate to ask us anything. If you ever just want to talk to someone, PM me.

[love is louder]

Yea just tell him you don't feel comfortable with a loaded gun lying around. I sure as hell wouldn't and I have no suicidal thoughts what so ever. He should respect you and atleast lock it up.
Also with the abandonment situation I am in the same boat. My therapy is starting to come to an end with one of my therapists and because of 'confidentiality' I can't tell her what I actually really need help with. I have built a relationship up with this woman for about a year and she has to pretty much refuse to help me. Tbh I can't give you any advise on the last bit but know that its not only you that feels this way. And I'm sure other people are feeling the same way we are
Hope you can work it out with your dad