I would do anything to feel okay.

[Fiction]

The title says it all. I'm literally at the point where I can't do it anymore. I'm just completely and utterly exhausted.

I wish i could take back everything i've ever done. I've hurt so many people and it really isn't fair for me to sit here complaining. I'm not the victim of anything, i'm just the person causing pain.

I hate myself to the point where I want to just get rid of myself. It feels like it's better for me and everyone else. I know you're all going to tell me it's not true, but nothing anyone can say is going to change how I feel.

On top of that my mum found all my stuff. Blood stained tissues and things. I'm going to have her on my back now, I regret her ever finding out. If I tell her the truth I hurt her, if I don't.. well I don't know.

I've already overdosed today. Not quite enough to do any damage but I have them ready if I need them. I just don't have the energy anymore. I want to lock myself in a dark room and just be alone. I can't cope. I want to die. :/

[StoppingTime]

Kathy, you know not to listen to that. (What you quoted). You are so much better than you think. Talk to Aaron. I know you have, and I know he is going to tell you the exact same thing I am. And that is because it is 100% true. You are so much better than you think.

Also, did she do anything when she found your things?

[Fiction]

Kathy, you know not to listen to that. (What you quoted). You are so much better than you think. Talk to Aaron. I know you have, and I know he is going to tell you the exact same thing I am. And that is because it is 100% true. You are so much better than you think.

Also, did she do anything when she found your things?

Just asked me if I was cutting again. I never really stopped, she just stopped noticing.

[ShatteredGlass]

We often feel that we cannot control our emotions and instead allow them to control us, we often think the same thing about our thoughts while the truth is our thoughts control our emotions and we can control our thoughts thus (to some extenet) we can control our emotions. No one's life is really their own most of it belongs to the people we touch while we yet live. To the people who to them we are a ray of sunshine, to that friend who needs a listening ear and to everyone who we impact that we don't even know. You may want to die, you may want to give up but anyone can give up and though everyone dies few people live. You have been gifted with the life you have when so many are losing theirs and have lost theirs, this isn't to guilt trip you, this is to tell you that that's valuable your life is valuable, YOU are valuable you have know idea whose heart you've touched, are touching or will touch. Remember "Suicide is mass murder because it kills everyone around you". Every life has ups and downs and even if it seems that all your life (even if you're not a victim of anything) has been a down you never know when that can change you never know how quickly that can switch. Life comes in stages but you can only move on to the next stage if you realize that you're in a stage. You can come out of your depression and learn to love yourself and your life if you make the decision to. We believe more of what we say to ourselves than what anyone else says to us. So you have to start telling yourself "I am valuable, my life is beautiful, I have a purpose," start seeing yourself where you're going instead of where you are don't allow your actions to define you. Don't say "i'm a cutter" because you are infinitely more complex and wonderful than any one word can describe. Start telling yourself "I will come out of this, I may be depressed but it's just a feeling and feelings pass, this too shall pass, I may feel worthless but I am priceless, I may cut now but one day all that will mar my beautiful skin will be faded scars to remind me that anyone can heal"

[boyman25]

living thorugh tough times prove what kind of a person we are if you cant take it no one will care or respect you (but thats where egotism comes into play and if you care or not) its all your choice but it only matters what you think of your self are you weak Kathy or are you Strong enough to carry on and Transform your slef into something else? cutting doesnt make you stronger and it doesnt release stress find other ways draw write sing! we are all amazing gifted people and we need to let the world know (if we want to that is) how great we aredont give up push Harder. it doesnt matter if everyone else believes in you onbly if You belive you can carry on. good luck hope i helped you