My Coming Out Journal

[canadaski]

I just went on a driving trip to a store and I've been tremendously anxious for the past two weeks. I'll tell you a little story. I was driving with my dad in the passengers seat, I was extremely nervous and desperately wanted to tell him. I planned to pull over in a parking lot and tell him the way things were. When I flipped the signal, he got annoyed asking me where I was going. I broke down in the car and started hyperventilating. When we got home, we sat in the car in the driveway. I asked him if I could ever truly disappoint him. He wanted to know what the problem was. I then left the car and said "I'm fucking gay" and walked in the house, although I think a neighbour might have heard, oh well. I lay down on the couch and discussed it a little further. I was surprised at how well he took the news, considering I occasionally hear him use the word fag or faggot. His attitude primarily was, "that's the way it is, it's not the end of the world."

Apart from my blood pumping violently and being dizzy, I feel fantastic and ready for anything.

My mom is gone away with friends for the weekend but I'll have to tell her when she gets back sometime. I only told my dad this about hal

I hope this inspires some other people to come out and tell their parents or friends, even my story is a bit lame. I'll post updates on my situation.


If it weren't for this forum, I wouldn't have had the courage to do this. I appreciate deeply all of the support I have received here.

[Dimitri]

Nice job Liam, you did great!! More courage than I have. That took some balls there.

[Misfit]

Congratulations mate!!

[BiBoy5674]

Congratulations :)

[canadaski]

Thanks for the support everybody.

I don't know how or when I'll tell my mom, she isn't home yet. My dad on the other hand is being absolutely ridiculous although I do appreciate the acceptance. He's talking as though everything is different, when everything is the same as it was before. He's treating me as though a good friend died or something which is, frankly pretty depressing.

[Jupiter]

Besides your dad treating you differently, I'm so glad this happened to you!

[juan]

Congratulations :)

[nameless12]

awww man, i wish i could have the courage to tell my dad... o well, congrats man, you did real good :)

[Unsolvedmind]

Congratulations Liam!!!!! Hope it goes well with your mom! Eh? P.s I vist Canada every year so I know your lanuage bye now xD

[Fourth Dimension]

Congrats xD

[blackpo]

:) u did great not everyone can even start to come out

[Can'tHelpIt]

If I were to come out I would not tell my dad first man bravo

[canadaski]

Thanks again for the kind words everybody.:)

In Canedeh way tokk leyeik diss ay?:D

My mom walked into my room this morning and sat on my bed (I don't know why). We were talking and I was really nervous as I remembered that I had yet to come out to her. She sensed this and continually asked me what was wrong, at first I was reluctant to give her the real answer. She then asked "what are you feeling?" to which I replied "gay." I could hear the surprise in her voice but then she accepted it and said "it's okay, there are some cruel people in this world and to ignore them."

I'm glad they are accepting, it even feel as though I'm "more gay" now for some reason if that makes any. I'm not thinking too much about wishing i was straight an acting straight anymore. I've still got a long way to go to fully accept it myself but I'm getting there.

Now I'm just wondering who I should tell next. I may not tell anyone else for at least a little while, but I feel that I might need to tell someone else soon.