It always has to get worse.

[Bob_]

Just when I was finally able to be optimistic about life, today ends up as one of the worst days of my life... When I came home today to eat lunch like I normally do, my mom tells me the plan they had set up for my brother and I when we were very young to get $10,000 when we're 21 to help pay for college is actually only worth $5k if one of us dies and $484 if we sell them or whatever. So the past 20 years, that's been a lie. After already being in a bad mood for the 2nd half of school, I force my way through and then 2 hours of night school (which is terrible anyways) and I'm finally able to go home. WELL, even MORE bad news. My pet vole died today. I'm sad, but not too surprised, since he was past the normal lifespan anyways. I'm gonna miss the little dude a lot, though. He was pretty much mine. And now I'm laying on my bed crying trying to have tv cheer me up, homework sitting next to me, not even started, typing this on my phone like everything else on this site. It's not just some homework, either. I have to write and type, without any errors, a character analysis of Macbeth, at least 4 pages long...

How the hell am I supposed to be able to put up with this when I know my future is ruined, and my little guy is gone? This is definately up there as one of the worst days of my life, and I get to go to school tomorrow and act like I'm entirely fine. Oh, joy...

[soccerbo]

dont lose hope. everything will work out somehow

[Oath]

Things like that happen. Apply for scholarships/financial aid. Don't let this get to you.

[Amaryllis]

Oh honey, that sounds like a horrible day. You're reacting rather well, though.

You might never be able to change your situation completely. You can influence it, of course. But if it doesn't change, that's alright, too. How you react to things really affects the situation. You can loose it and say "Fuck this! I hate my life!" or you can take a breath and think "Okay. What's the rational and logical way of doing things here? If life is gonna get so bad, why don't I just treasure it right now?"

Change is natural, sweetie. Loved ones will not be here forever. I'm so sorry about your pet, but he isn't immortal. You knew he wasn't going to live as long as you. You had a wonderful time with him, now you need to respect him and move on.

I know it seems impossible to deal with now but don't drown in all the pain. Allow yourself to feel it and cry. That's okay. But don't stay here forever.

Some feel the rain and some just get wet.

[DoctorNewbie]

It'll be okay. There is always tomorrow, no matter how shitty, how fucked you feel. Trust me, I've been to the void and back. It does get better.

And if you need any more help with Macbeth, that play is my fucking soul. I know it frontwards and backwards. I'm happy to lend a hand.

[Bob_]

I don't mean to sound mean, but I've been able to recover by the next day. So this should probably be locked, other people need help before me.

I didn't even write my character analysis until the night after, but I spent a lot of time on it, so it looked fairly nice. I've been talking to a girl who makes me happy (see my relationships and dating thread =P) and cares about me enough to see when I'm not feeling great, and I'm just an optimistic person, even with all that's happened this week. So, I'm looking at my future and living today. No sense in dwelling in the past. =)