Fed up of it all! (Long) >.<

[Totality]

Right, well - no cheery intro here like normal, this time its serious.

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I guess it I've had throughout my entire life - my family. Parents are great, others not so much.

See my family is a bit archaic and medieval. They believe in `purity` and that's what I'm not. I'm not `normal`.

I would be `normal` if not for my disability, this disability - it doesn't hinder much but to them, I'm an outcast, `impure` & `abnormal`

Recently diagnosed with Disassociate Disorder makes me more `abnormal` and I swear it's their life mission to make me miserable.

Now I haven't cut or self-harmed for a while, but at this rate it feels like it might be just around the corner. I believe I've done well not to SH, considering this has been going on my entire life, only time I did SH mainly, was went my girlfriend ran off with my best friend.

I'm the typical type - put a fake smile and laugh for everyone around, when i get home - lock myself in my room and let my real emotions flood over.

I can't find relief in anything anymore, I'm too depressed to enjoy life, to live life.

Forums such as this are my only escape, and even there effects are starting to fail.

I just need someone to be there for a change, and not put me down or call me a freak, abnormal or impure. I need to someone that's not gonna get bored of me, and turn against me.

Thanks for reading,

and don't worry if you don't reply - im quite used to being alone - I've done it for the past 13 years.

[TheGangstaSheep]

Come on man! Trust me, when you're so down and you feel like life's the worst it's ever been, that's when you know that life can get better. Don't feel you are limited in what you can do. You are human like the rest of us and it's your right to achieve you dreams.

Hope I helped, Cihan/Turk.

[Oath]

Cheer up. It's alright to feel down sometimes. Nobody is perfect. Be happy for who you are. You have us to talk to. We all finish the race at different times.