Suicidal.

[LoveMe_HateMe]

What do you do when you feel so low that you just want to die? That every other thought is either cutting or ways to kill myself. Every time I go out in the car, I drive that little fast round a corner hoping that I don't make it. That every time I see paracetamol I wonder how many it would take to kill myself. That whenever I cut I wonder how deep I'd have to go? That when I'm at work that I walk around thinking about what I'd put in writing, who I'd text.

I can't do this. I wan't it to end. I'm struggling to get through the day. I've been skipping college being "ill" but to be honest, I just can't face people any more. I only drag my ass out of bed when I have work - only because I want the money so I can move out... If I last that long.

I feel like I have no one to turn to. My girlfriend and best friend have their own problems to deal with, they actually have proper reasons why they feel so low, why they cut/used to cut... I don't. Mine's all self inflicted.

I'm just a waste of space. Worthless. I don't know what to do. I know I can't leave, I promised.

[Nexus]

I've been through very similar problems. Try to keep as busy as possible. Find a study group and spend a significant amount of your time there. That's how I got current with assignments when I decided to take two weeks off for my own reasons.

Always bear in mind that suicide is a very permanent solution to a temporary problem. These feelings won't haunt you forever; However, you'll have to find a way to push through them when they happen though. We all do.

[Bob_]

It's not easy, I know. But suicide should NEVER be a possible solution. I'm a normal person, too, and even I've thought about it during depression. But I know that nothing good will come of ending it all. What about those friends? They need you there, too. You're not solving anything with it, and you'd be making everything worse for the people around you. You've got many years left, it's not worth cutting off all of those years. There's always someone there for you, even if you can't see it right now.