I'm back with bad news *trigger warning*

[TheSleepingInsomniac]

I started cutting again after being clean for 3 months. i remember when i first started cutting i used pencil sharpener blades or held a hot object till my hands went red. Now i'm so much worse, i use those incredibly sharp home improvement craft knife blades or my sisters hair straightener. i'm starting to scare myself with how much worse i got and i have been very diligent at hiding it, absolutely no slip ups or missing blades. I'm sorry if this is too descriptive but i just needed to write it. I didn't want it to get this bad, i was just a scratcher but now i keep a mini first aid kit in my bag and watch my knife like it's my child. Where did i go wrong? When did my control slip away from me?

[Oath]

I am so sorry to hear that. We have times where we relapse. It happens. I don't want to see you turn to the blades for help. They aren't the solution. It's time to let them go. There are better ways to deal with depression. Those horrible memories should be an aide to help you refrain from cutting. I think it is time that you find something to overcome this. Hopefully by finding a distraction, the blades won't the the thing you use to relieve yourself. Making this thread was the first step. You are willing to be open and honest about your relapse. You are now becoming more dependent on the blades, you shouldn't do that. This isn't the right solution. The past the the past. I am worried about your future and your safety. Talking about these sorts of these are also a good step in the right direction. I have faith in you, and I know you are going to get through this. I want you to be able to throw the blades away. It's tough, but you can do it. :)

[hideandseek]

it’s alright if you relapse once or twice, I personally don’t think stopping all at once is the right way of going about it, if you cut everyday just try only cutting every 2 days and then once you are used to that reduce the number of days you cut and it will be easier to get better. also try putting your knife in a locked draw (or take the handle off one so it’s hard to open) when you go out and try and oath is right when she says to find a distraction, don’t laugh but I find that if I write all my problems on paper then cut the paper up and burn it helps me resist the need to cut. Good luck and I hope I have been helpful =)

[bena3217]

i dont know why people think they can stop after one day...it takes time! it takes effort to stop! its not just some silly thing that happens!! its a serious problem! it takes weeks if not months of help! its not easy for people like us and thats why we do it...but some people need to realise you need help! i also make a big deal of hiding it! but sometimes you should go to people you trust and tell them to help...that would take alot i know...i couldnt do it! mabye like if you lets say cut everyday...make it every second day for a week and then every third day...and try and keep the cut amount low...that workd for some people,mabye it would work for you