Your my new doctor.

[Opium]

**Long wall of text, and first post**
I don't even know where to start with this.. So i'll start as far back as i remember, and work my way up.
Back when i was in seventh grade, i started to notice that i saw things and understood things different from my class mates. One of the ''differences'' was in math class. The numbers on the board made me feel really uncomfortable. Something about the way they're shaped or, i don't even know. I just do not like numbers. Also, some letters irritate me beyond belief. Such as a capital 'a'. It pisses me off, and i don't know why. I think it looks messy, and just.. mean? I feel partially crazy saying that a letter could look mean - but i'm hoping someone on here can understand where i'm coming from.

Over the year i started to develop anxiety, maybe social anxiety? I felt as if everyone was looking at me, and my appearance, my voice, my actions, everything was being judged by someone. I feel as if someone knows all my secrets and they're just waiting to tell everyone. (Part of the reason why i've been reluctant to making a VT account..) This caused me to be awkward to have a conversation with, however my friends don't realize it and think everything i say is a joke. I tend to say things that make no sense, at all.

Now i have some kind of anxiety in a car.. I always feel like i'm going to crash, and then the insurance will go up.. and the numbers. The prices, just scares me. I think this is because of my brother, he almost got us into an accident at the beginning of last summer. However, this anxiety just started building up maybe two - three weeks ago.

OCD; the big problem. Everything i do has to be perfect, and clean (to my brain). Letters and numbers have to do with this too. Like the whole capital 'a' thing. I don't like capital i's either, but find myself using them because that conflicts with my grammar ocd. Also my room, has to be perfect. Any particle of dust will drive me insane. I think i'm going to stop typing now.

Can someone diagnose me? What's wrong with me..?

[StoppingTime]

This is important. Nobody here is a licensed physician, and therefore cannot legally diagnose you. We can only give tips and advice. With that aside...


**Long wall of text, and first post**
I don't even know where to start with this.. So i'll start as far back as i remember, and work my way up.
Back when i was in seventh grade, i started to notice that i saw things and understood things different from my class mates. One of the ''differences'' was in math class. The numbers on the board made me feel really uncomfortable. Something about the way they're shaped or, i don't even know. I just do not like numbers. Also, some letters irritate me beyond belief. Such as a capital 'a'. It pisses me off, and i don't know why. I think it looks messy, and just.. mean? I feel partially crazy saying that a letter could look mean - but i'm hoping someone on here can understand where i'm coming from.
This could be any number of things. It may be nothing, or a very minor case of a disorder. However, just from the facts that you have listed, I would guess it may be a form of OCD, like you mention later. These are some posts with basic information here (http://www.virtualteen.org/forums/showthread.php?t=13646) and here (http://www.virtualteen.org/forums/showthread.php?t=91394) on how to find possible symptoms.
Also, have a look around here (http://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/topics/obsessive-compulsive-disorder-ocd/index.shtml) for more detailed information.
Do you feel as if there is no way you can control these thoughts?


Over the year i started to develop anxiety, maybe social anxiety? I felt as if everyone was looking at me, and my appearance, my voice, my actions, everything was being judged by someone. I feel as if someone knows all my secrets and they're just waiting to tell everyone. (Part of the reason why i've been reluctant to making a VT account..) This caused me to be awkward to have a conversation with, however my friends don't realize it and think everything i say is a joke. I tend to say things that make no sense, at all.
If I had to make a guess here, I would say it is related to schizophrenia. Again, I can't, nor can anyone here, tell you that for sure. I'll do the same thing as before. Here is a basic outline of it, and how it manifests itself (http://www.virtualteen.org/forums/showthread.php?t=13538). Also check back to NIMH, the previous link, it has a good deal on this as well. I don't know if this is related to social anxiety alone, because that is included in the broader topic of schizophrenia.


Now i have some kind of anxiety in a car.. I always feel like i'm going to crash, and then the insurance will go up.. and the numbers. The prices, just scares me. I think this is because of my brother, he almost got us into an accident at the beginning of last summer. However, this anxiety just started building up maybe two - three weeks ago.

This is most likely just general anxiety. I don't think it is any kind of mental illness, just judging from what you wrote here. some people jet tend to worry more than others, and this can be helped with therapy.


OCD; the big problem. Everything i do has to be perfect, and clean (to my brain). Letters and numbers have to do with this too. Like the whole capital 'a' thing. I don't like capital i's either, but find myself using them because that conflicts with my grammar ocd. Also my room, has to be perfect. Any particle of dust will drive me insane. I think i'm going to stop typing now.

Can someone diagnose me? What's wrong with me..?

You probably have some form of OCD, like stated above. There isn't that much more to it.



However, if you really want to, I would seek professional help. Maybe start with a school consoler. If they feel necessary, they can direct you to a medical professional/therapist if they feel treatment is necessary. Don't feel nervous about going up to them. Trust me, they are out to help you not to judge you.


Anything else you may want to add is welcome OP.

Good Luck!
~StoppingTime/Steve

[Opium]

Thanks a lot for the detailed reply, i appreciate it. However since i'm terrified of speaking of this stuff out loud, i highly doubt i'll be going to a counselor any time soon. Especially one from my school. Once again though, thanks. I'll make sure to read up on those links.

[StoppingTime]

You're welcome. There is always this (http://store.samhsa.gov/mhlocator). you could go in without anyone knowing a thing about you. Only do it if you're comfortable though. Don't stress out over it too much.

[canadaski]

Going to a counselor is not going to accomplish much. Get a referral from your GP to see a psychiatrist. Also, make sure that he isn't just a pill pusher. Having a psychiatrist that you like is important.

You can look up doctor reviews online at ratemds.com

[StoppingTime]

Going to a counselor is not going to accomplish much. Get a referral from your GP to see a psychiatrist. Also, make sure that he isn't just a pill pusher. Having a psychiatrist that you like is important.

You can look up doctor reviews online at ratemds.com

Not completely true. I said consoler because they are usually the easiest to access. They are the middle man. They'll talk to you for a few days, and once they recognize a problem, they'll refer you to a psychiatrist.