Worth it?

[LoveMe_HateMe]

Is is really worth it me being here? I mean everything I do is wrong. I upset someone no matter what I do. It's getting old, tiring. I just want to go curl up in bed and cry and cut. I want to mess up my wrists/arms/legs so bad. I need these thoughts and feelings to go away. I can't do this much longer. Everyone says "it'll get better"... Yeah. For the past 2/3 I've just gone downhill. I'm tired of it. I want it to end. I'm tired of fighting. Tired pretending I'm okay.

I just don't know what to do. I have no one to turn to - everyone else has their own problems. I can't add to them. It's not fair on the people.

[Amaryllis]

Honey, you can message me whenever. I'm always willing to listen. I'm here for you. Forget that you'll add to my problems. It really doesn't matter, you deserve to have someone there for you. I completely understand the guilt you feel when you talk to someone about how you feel. But it's so hard, keeping it all locked up inside and having to cope with the pain you feel. I'm here.

I know it may seem impossible now, but one day you -will- feel better and you -will- get through this and become a stronger person. A lot of the time, we perceive ourselves as horrible when it's completely far from the truth and no one who matters actually thinks that.

Cutting really doesn't solve anything, sweetheart. Talking is a much better alternative. Treasure all those little joys in life, not the misery. You'll be alright. And one day you'll look back at this and be glad you didn't cut.