solid-snake
November 12th, 2011, 10:47 PM
split personality disorder.
basic idea(if i got this right) is that one mind has multiple personas and usualy jump from one to the other.
so stupid qwestion i know but if i go to someone professional it just starts a clusterfuck of problems for me.
can someone develop spd at a later age insted of being born with it(i pressume thats how it usualy starts)
the reson i ask is because well...the best way to put it is think of my mind as a mini van.
dad is driving and not paying attention(he represents what my body is doing at the moment)
mother is in the passenger seat(she represents the middleman who keeps everyone in line)
in the back you have damon(he represents my urge to see man kind fall inwards on itself and is my general evil side)
then you have goodberg(crap name i know but he represents my creative and constructive side and my general good side)
and finnaly in the very back you have ben(ben represents my teenager. who is self indulgent and only does what benifits him)
when ever i start thinking it qwickly becomes a full on coversation in my head. usualy between goodberg and damon. and eventualy something crosses my mind and the two start fighting with eachother. back and forth until mom steps in and usualy screams at the two making them back into there corners.
and the big thing is this is something i developed only a year of 2 ago. i try to think this is something i made and i can destroy it all the same. but i cant everytime i think by myself they all come back and start fighting.
and just gas to the fire when i force them out of my train of thought. and try keeping them out drepression sinks in and iunno everythingjust falls apart until i start to interact with other people and lose my train of thoughts.
basic idea(if i got this right) is that one mind has multiple personas and usualy jump from one to the other.
so stupid qwestion i know but if i go to someone professional it just starts a clusterfuck of problems for me.
can someone develop spd at a later age insted of being born with it(i pressume thats how it usualy starts)
the reson i ask is because well...the best way to put it is think of my mind as a mini van.
dad is driving and not paying attention(he represents what my body is doing at the moment)
mother is in the passenger seat(she represents the middleman who keeps everyone in line)
in the back you have damon(he represents my urge to see man kind fall inwards on itself and is my general evil side)
then you have goodberg(crap name i know but he represents my creative and constructive side and my general good side)
and finnaly in the very back you have ben(ben represents my teenager. who is self indulgent and only does what benifits him)
when ever i start thinking it qwickly becomes a full on coversation in my head. usualy between goodberg and damon. and eventualy something crosses my mind and the two start fighting with eachother. back and forth until mom steps in and usualy screams at the two making them back into there corners.
and the big thing is this is something i developed only a year of 2 ago. i try to think this is something i made and i can destroy it all the same. but i cant everytime i think by myself they all come back and start fighting.
and just gas to the fire when i force them out of my train of thought. and try keeping them out drepression sinks in and iunno everythingjust falls apart until i start to interact with other people and lose my train of thoughts.