SamB
November 12th, 2011, 03:49 PM
Hey, so I haven't been on here in a very long time and I think an update is in order.
Right so when I first joined VT I believed that I was bi, and a lot since then has changed. When I left VT I didn't have a clue about my sexuality and I was confused and this caused me to start hating myself more than normal and I started to have feelings of suicide. Until one night when me and my best friend were talking about it all and he helped me to realise and helped to sort things out. Some of the things he said that night were incredible and he has changed my life. Anyway the things that he said were that because I have been brought up thinking that gay is wrong and that straight is the right thing to be, I was telling myself that I am straight or bi subconsciously to please my parents. But once that had been said I felt that it was exactly what had been happening to me and I realised at that point that I am gay.
After that I came out to a few more close friends who I knew I could trust and they all accepted it and I love them all more now. But soon after I meet a guy thorough Tumblr and we started talking, we then meet up and he seemed perfect. Because of having these feelings I felt like I was ready to come out to my parents and did. I wrote a letter explaining everything that I had been through and left it on their bed for them to find. The next few days after that my mum was really upset and didn't know what to do. My dad was fine with it from the start. But mum is now fine and I just need to tell my sisters. Oh and the guy that I thought was "perfect" turned out to be a total prick and just ignored me for no reason after saying that he wanted to be with me. But oh well I am over it.
Also one of the things that I am extremely worried about is coming out to people at my church, however I have told a few people from church and they have been fine. So that's put my mind at rest for a little while.
But yer that it really.... thank you for reading if you did read all of that an if you have questions just ask :)
Samuel.
Right so when I first joined VT I believed that I was bi, and a lot since then has changed. When I left VT I didn't have a clue about my sexuality and I was confused and this caused me to start hating myself more than normal and I started to have feelings of suicide. Until one night when me and my best friend were talking about it all and he helped me to realise and helped to sort things out. Some of the things he said that night were incredible and he has changed my life. Anyway the things that he said were that because I have been brought up thinking that gay is wrong and that straight is the right thing to be, I was telling myself that I am straight or bi subconsciously to please my parents. But once that had been said I felt that it was exactly what had been happening to me and I realised at that point that I am gay.
After that I came out to a few more close friends who I knew I could trust and they all accepted it and I love them all more now. But soon after I meet a guy thorough Tumblr and we started talking, we then meet up and he seemed perfect. Because of having these feelings I felt like I was ready to come out to my parents and did. I wrote a letter explaining everything that I had been through and left it on their bed for them to find. The next few days after that my mum was really upset and didn't know what to do. My dad was fine with it from the start. But mum is now fine and I just need to tell my sisters. Oh and the guy that I thought was "perfect" turned out to be a total prick and just ignored me for no reason after saying that he wanted to be with me. But oh well I am over it.
Also one of the things that I am extremely worried about is coming out to people at my church, however I have told a few people from church and they have been fine. So that's put my mind at rest for a little while.
But yer that it really.... thank you for reading if you did read all of that an if you have questions just ask :)
Samuel.