Apparently, I'm not straight...

[Hewhohasnoriches]

Sorry if you've seen threads like this before, but the question constantly bugs me.

I think you've seen my posts before, about how I've been attracted to girls and all in the past. Now I seriously think that I might be gay, or that I have some sort of real attraction to other guys.

For about a year, I kept obsessing over a fear of being gay, and it's only since yesterday have I begun to calm down about it. Since I've calmed down, it seems as though my erections for guys (after thinking about some gay porn that I watched to see if I was gay) actually kinda stayed and were slightly bigger than before.

It also seems that my interest in women has died down significantly, I don't even think I can get attracted to women anymore.

I think I must be gay... either that or I probably watch too much porn and stimulate too much. I seem far too old to be curious or to have the same sexual confusion that 13-15 year-olds go through (I'm 17, now).

You may want to look at this (http://yourbrainonporn.com/book/export/html/15) to know what I'm talking about when I talk about porn.

I used to call myself HOCD when dealing with the problems.

I just don't understand how I can go from being attracted to girls in the past, to guys right now.

What do you think?

[logan fields]

i think some girls are cute but i never like wanted to be their bf or anything like that and i guess i pretty much felt the same way about boys until maybe the last year so i kinda know what you mean. now i think some boys are way cute and i think about gay stuff but i still dont know what it all means and what i am. maybe next year we ll like girls and everything will be alright because everyone here says we gho through phases in puberty but idk. mybe you should go with what feels right for you and im sure if its not right for you you will figure that out pretty quick. i dont really know what im talking about but i just had a lot of the same feelings as you and wanted to tell you that.

[Hewhohasnoriches]

^Actually, I have had crushes on girls in the past, even thinking sexually of them. And I've just realized that I can still be attracted to the opposite sex. But you're right, I've begun to think in that sort of way.

I guess we'll see, but I don't really know if it's a puberty phase for me, as I am 17 right now, and I'm not a late bloomer by any means.

[canadaski]

^Actually, I have had crushes on girls in the past, even thinking sexually of them. And I've just realized that I can still be attracted to the opposite sex. But you're right, I've begun to think in that sort of way.

I guess we'll see, but I don't really know if it's a puberty phase for me, as I am 17 right now, and I'm not a late bloomer by any means.

I feel the same way about myself. I don't know whether or not I'm gay or bisexual, all I know is that I'm not straight. I've known for quite a long time though, I just never wanted to accept it. I went through the stress and the fear that you are describing.

[Fruit_Tart.]

Over time you'll know, but you have to experiment or try and look at either sex in a sexual and emotional way. One of them you'll feel stronger toward and more comfortable with and it takes some time to figure it out. Think about what future you want to live and who you see yourself with, whether it's a boy or a girl.
I wish you the best of luck and I hope you find yourself.

[Abyssinian]

Orientation can change at any point in a person's life. The first time I had real, soul-crushing feelings for a girl was this year, and I'm almost 20 =)

I've identified as bi for years, but it's stronger now than ever. I only recently felt comfortable enough with myself to get my pride tattoo. It takes time to figure out where you really stand, and even then it might change again, who knows!

Best of luck!

[Abyssinian]

Double post! Grr internet! Sorry!

[Can'tHelpIt]

Same but now the only attraction to girls is like 10% of my romantic part
Basically it is
Sexual: Guys 100%
Romantic: Guys 90% Girls 10%