princessjess
November 10th, 2011, 10:37 PM
so i managed to go a month without cutting, and this has been a really long and stressful month. friend drama, boy drama, aquiantences died, lost friends, almost lost family, got called all sorts of names and things by my grandmother who thinks im a selfish, rude, insolent, skanky whore (though i promise im none, but because im not a twig(no offense!:) ) and have curves i must be) but i made it. i had a couple butterflys and i was so proud of myself.. and then three days ago i was home alone and my bestfriend (who is also my ex) and i got in a huge fight. and he said he was going and that we werent going to ever talk again and he didnt want anything to do with me. he was done with me. and i couldnt take it anymore and broke down and made6 shallow and 2 deep cuts on my wrist.. im so dissapointed in myself, i know if i had taken a few minutes to calm down i would have been able to control myself but i didnt... so im starting to count again and see how long i make it this time..