A creaking mess

[ryantombs]

So basically i was crying a mess tonight and mother comes up and asks wats wrong i go i dnt wanna talk about it but i will be fine. And she goes ok. But come and get me if yu need me
Ok i continue to cry and stuff dad comes up making threats and shit i go i dnt wanna talk about it and im fine cuz thts what my dr said and he flipped out and so i finally told them i cut and showed em my scars my dad automatically screamed he needs help hospital now physch ward and now im bursting crying yelling my mom going stopp i try pushing by him and he pins himself between me and the stairs i push him going move and stuff he put his arm around my head and pulls me and shit i jus wanna get away and omg he was nuts and im jus a mess and my depression is worsening and its isk any thing can help at this point

[Amaryllis]

I completely understand. When my mum found out, she beat me, told all her friends and relatives, banned me from everything and from leaving her sight. I couldn't even shower without my father watching me.

They really just don't understand, sweetheart. That or they're in denial. They don't know what to do and anger is all they know to show. That's how they've learned to teach their kids. It takes time, but if your parents care enough and your relationship with them is relatively okay - they will learn to understand and try their best to help.

Tell them you need professional help. It'll be difficult because taking your child to a professional is like saying "I've failed as a parent. I couldn't protect my child. I did something wrong. My child has a problem I can't and don't know how to fix"

Be honest and speak up. Be honest about your feelings. Nobody can help you if you're not willing to be. one day they will understand. Or maybe they never will. That's okay. You have others or if you don't, at least you have yourself. That's all you ever need.

[RAWWR]

Unfortunately people that have never self harmed or known people who self harm, don't seem to understand it at all, Print off informationfrom the internet, cooperate with what they want as long as it's reasonable, don't promise you're going to stop as realistically it won't happen yet, it take time, but promise you'll try, make charts and reward yourself for going however long, this show's them you're trying and gives you a positive reason to give up the self harm. It's a long, hard process but you'll get there :) Good luck.

[ryantombs]

The thing is my parents esp my dad have researched it both professional articles and forums like this to try and understand and i stopped but i explained how im triggered every single day and its a daily fight and how I cope and stuff... And yeh but its jus the one gurl tht calms me down is my ex gf now friends but i go hey mom can i go to this like resturant tomorrow wit her aftr therapy jus to talk shit out i get a no and they complain why i cant tell them anything and im like see this is exactly why i lie meh my life has been real shitty even suicidal thoughts are creeping into my mind

[lordmac001]

Have a friend lay and roll around on the bed while you get below them and determine the origin of the creak. It's possible that it may not be the bed creaking, but rather, the floor below you.

[ryantombs]

Well considering Tht c and f are fairly close on a keyboard its a typo i can see yu have little to know common sense its really ashame