Mr. Awesome
November 9th, 2011, 09:11 PM
Ive always gotten depressed every now and then
It never lasted too long, and i could always manage to do what needed to be done. But know it just seems never ending, For months now i felt depressed, of course i put up a front, but know im just worn down and cant even be bothered trying to hide it.
I just cant find a reason to get out of bed, and then i hate myself for staying in bed. My college work just isnt geting done, i gaze off into space. Worst of all my mom have noticed it, and shes asking me all the time are you alright and blah blah blah......
My friends are all finding boyfriends/girlfriends, im feeling left out. Like nobody cares about me, the one person i want to be with has a boyfriend, yet she tells me she likes me, she will be hot and cold with me, confusing the hell out of me, so i see a glimmer at happiness and then its ripped away.
Its just never been this bad before, i feel like im a walking zombie and i just cant find anything to take me out of this depression, i feel like just going and getting drunk to forget about things for a while.
I just want to get out of this, and back to some happiness
It never lasted too long, and i could always manage to do what needed to be done. But know it just seems never ending, For months now i felt depressed, of course i put up a front, but know im just worn down and cant even be bothered trying to hide it.
I just cant find a reason to get out of bed, and then i hate myself for staying in bed. My college work just isnt geting done, i gaze off into space. Worst of all my mom have noticed it, and shes asking me all the time are you alright and blah blah blah......
My friends are all finding boyfriends/girlfriends, im feeling left out. Like nobody cares about me, the one person i want to be with has a boyfriend, yet she tells me she likes me, she will be hot and cold with me, confusing the hell out of me, so i see a glimmer at happiness and then its ripped away.
Its just never been this bad before, i feel like im a walking zombie and i just cant find anything to take me out of this depression, i feel like just going and getting drunk to forget about things for a while.
I just want to get out of this, and back to some happiness