Four_Winds
November 7th, 2011, 07:44 PM
I have the most difficulty in life with expressing how I feel about things. Everything I do or say always misses its target, and sounds like scattered words about feelings and such. >:/
I'm 18, and everything in life still saddens me. I just can't seem to cope with natural aspects of life, such as death.. and even living. This will probably sound really Donnie Darko, but if every living creature dies alone, then whats the point of living? I just can't see past that, and accepting hardly makes sense to me. And then little things get to me. I failed a test in my college algebra class, and I reacted by bracing myself for impending doom. It felt like the equivalent of someone close to me dying. It feels so pathetic. Just seems like every single thing, big or small makes me really depressed and distraught. Sometimes its kind of an out-of-body experience... sorta. I just never feel like my feelings and thoughts are ever my own. Like I'm just residing in the body of someone else.
I'm whiny. :/ I don't know what I'm looking for, but if there's a magic 'tip' for how to live... I'd like to know it.
I'm 18, and everything in life still saddens me. I just can't seem to cope with natural aspects of life, such as death.. and even living. This will probably sound really Donnie Darko, but if every living creature dies alone, then whats the point of living? I just can't see past that, and accepting hardly makes sense to me. And then little things get to me. I failed a test in my college algebra class, and I reacted by bracing myself for impending doom. It felt like the equivalent of someone close to me dying. It feels so pathetic. Just seems like every single thing, big or small makes me really depressed and distraught. Sometimes its kind of an out-of-body experience... sorta. I just never feel like my feelings and thoughts are ever my own. Like I'm just residing in the body of someone else.
I'm whiny. :/ I don't know what I'm looking for, but if there's a magic 'tip' for how to live... I'd like to know it.