I just want to die

[Jimmy Page]

This is just me whining(again)

I cut again,i cant stop it anymore,i give up,every time i get really happy something has to come along and fuck everything up and im so bloody fucking tired of it:mad:
My BFF is in the hospital,she tried to hang herself last night :(
And she was raped on her way home from school on Thursday,she haven't said anything to anyone except for telling me that she was raped
It made me feel horrible,i should never have went on a trip that day
I should have walked her home like i usually do
I should have been there to protect her
And i feel horrible for letting my fear of hospitals stopping me in visiting her there :(
And now ill probably get yelled at when mom see that i have cut again
I just let everyone down,my mom,my BFF,my boyfriend,my psychologist,everyone
I just want to die(im not suicidal and are not going to do it),maybe then can i get some peace

Sorry for filling VT with my whining,i just needed to get it out

[StoppingTime]

First of all, don't worry about venting here. That's what we are here for. To help you. Don't start cutting again though. It solves nothing, and if you have stopped for a while, don't start again, because it will be even harder to stop. Don't blame yourself for things out of you control either. You can't blame yourself for what happened. It isn't your fault that that happened. Things will look up eventually, just believe that they will. It may seem like having an optimistic outlook won't sve anything, but it really does.

She will be ok, and so will you. You will both get there. Can you call her? If so, just tell her how you've been feeling lately, and she will understand you. She knows how hard it can be for you, and she will listen.


Good Luck, and if you need anything, don't hesitate to PM me.

~StoppingTime/Steve

[SirentoCries]

I'm sure she knows it is not your fault, just be there for her ok?
As for your parents, they got to understand :|
As for your psychologist....they are there for a reason, you won't let them down, they are there to help you, when you get better, they will be happy for you!
and try not to cut.

[tatia]

are you still alive?


you will die someday, wether you suicide or not.
About the way you dying, you can choose
But of course, suicide is not a good thing to remember

[Amaryllis]

Her problems are hers. I know I sound really harsh right now but imagine if psychologists took on the pain of every one of their patients. Horrible things like these happen. Rape sucks shit. But she's the only one who can get herself through this. You can urge her along but this is her pain. Her battle.

You can't protect her forever.

You stumbled a bit. You cut. Pick yourself back up and keep going like you always do. Life is going to be tough. You're going to get tons of disappointments. But in between all of that are moments of sunshine.

You learn to live through whatever you need to. And each time you do, it gets easier.

[CreditCardRepayment]

Hi there my friend. Dont be feel as the bad you are . You are good and you know what you have to do in your life. Just be in happy mood. It would help you to solve every problems in your life. Be very much ambitious and try to pray for a god for a good future. Sometime these type of condition are occurred. It will give you pain of badness that you are. But you are a good and where the good mean occurred there is completely good condition to solve it. I hope you understand.
Try to take some mean of these following thought. It would be more helpful to you.
“Good friends, good books and a sleepy conscience: this is the ideal life.”

Thanks
Hoping that you will be in happiness mood. Keep it up and solve the problem as you know everything about it. Dont be fear. Take the responsibility.

[Tyler12]

My old saying was heaven or hell it's better than here please dude never let yourself get to this point killing your self is never the awnser you know why? Because you do not get a second chance at life if you kill yourself you will not now how it could have turned out get help for your own sake, if you need a friend I'm here

[MaliciousBunface]

Don't kill yourself, think about how you would affect all of those that you love, like your family, friends etc. For some people things get better at the end of their problems, so try hanging in there longer (: Talk to people here, they can help a lot.