My crappy life

[Israel1]

I just can't take this anymore, I can't cope with another year of this
I like girls, I find them attractive and I long for a loving realationship with one but sometime I find myself sexualy attracted to guys a litle bit, like wondering how big they are compared to me. I finally acepted to myself that I am straight curious and I am fine with that. But my mind will not turn off about it, everyday I think about it a I am almost in a struggle with my own mind over this. Why can't my OWN mind acepted me being curious? I don't check out guys (well once just to see how I compare). I do over think things alot, some people view it as a good thing but it isn't. My entire confusion started after the death of my nan and since then I have been battling with myself. I really want to be in a relationship with this girl at school and I really do love here. I am happy with straight curious, that is fine by me.

If you know anyway you can help please post. I can't take this much longer :/

[Short Circuit]

I take it your a boy as you say your straight and attracted to girls, but you don't say how old you are.

Sounds to me like your a normal boy going through puberty. What boy has not looked or checked out the opposition when at the toilets or in a shower, or even their "lunch box" when on the beach? I think most people will answer with "HORMONES"

BTW, IMHO I don't think this even makes you "curious", its a normal part of growing up, your confused mind could be brought on by the death of you nan, you must have been close to her, and you should talk to your parents or go and see a grief counselor if your still upset about her.

[DerBear]

Its a normal thing to go through some boys do and some boys dont its completely normal, I have never honestly cared or wanted to do the whole compare thing or "checking guys out" but that just me

Anyway just chill nothing to worry about

[Sosaku]

...not to belittle you, because if you are really grieving over this, then one, go to a counselor, or a teacher if you need to...

however, I'll call bullshit on this....the straightest guys i know...talk more about penises than I do, they are generally just like having contests about who's is bigger...

Penises are biological...and you're just curious as to how well you have developed...you're probably straight, not even bi-curious...just live life...stop taking sexuality too seriously....ask that girl out...be friends with her...or if your school has a GSA, go to a meeting or two...

[Israel1]

What is a GSA?
And thanks guys, I didn't realise that eodering how big other guys dicks are was a normal thing, I think that I am straight and I shouldn't of really thought about it to much buts that's OCD for yah!

Thanks people :P

[Sosaku]

GSA is Gay-Straight Alliance. its a club at some schools. and congrats on knowing who you are!