me losing it

[Afraid Of Me]

yeeeahup.

i have borderline personality disorder and i hallucinate... i hear voices.
i take meds for these that dont help (except for the depression) and when i think about the fact that i go through these things. i want to laugh about it. like its a good thing. well no. i know that it's not. but it's almost like i want to be like this but deep down i dont. my mental illness has stripped so much away from me thanks to my past. my confidence.. my happiness and my self worth.
all gone thanks to all of this. why would i want to be like this? and i hear other people going through things like this and i want to smile about it. you know.. inappropriate emotions are a symptom of schizophrenia..... just like hallucinations and hearing things that arent there...............

[cpr97]

your not losin it dude you said yourself its all symptoms of your condition you cant control that... although if the meds arent helpin you except for with depression you should talk to your doctors n see if theres other meds you could try our bodies are all different n different meds effect us all differently thats why there several different meds that in the end all do the samethings... trust me dude i been on depression meds now for almost 3 years n it took 4 different types before my doctor found the 1 that worked best for me like i said dude id deff ask your doctors if theres any other meds you could try just talk to em n be honest they are there to help you trust me
good luck hope this helps