Recovering...........

[XxMurderedKissesxX]

Before my "recovery" I was 90 pounds,now im 109. But every pound I gain,everytime I dont skip a meal,dont purge till my eyes are blood shot,I feel disgusting. This happened last time I tried to get better, things where looking up for awhile,but slowly degrated over time and the BAM i was ten times worse then I was before I tried to stop this endless self-hating cycle. Im stuck,and scared. I dont want to get worse again,but I cant stand knowing ill just keep gaining more and more. Like a pig. Oink oink.

[BrokenButterflies]

I can relate to how you feel. I've never been "in recovery" in a hospital/psych ward, but I've tried to eat more the 4-500 cals a day and have failed miserably. I know that's nothing compared to what your talking about, but I still do understand perfectly. If you ever want to talk, feel free to message me.