Depressed for a while

[Alexithymia]

I haven't felt the level of depression that I feel now since... Well, since a long time ago. Since around my worst point. I can't cut to help me though, and so I feel like I'll have to suffer through this. This isn't going to be fun.

Hell, I've posted this before and I'll post it again: I not afraid of anyone else now; I'm afraid of myself. I can't trust myself. I live with the thought of ending my life, with taking a few handfuls of pills and taking them, with taking a knife to my heart, with just the thought of death. And the only two things that stop me are the fear of death and the thought that my parents won't be able to afford the trip to the ER (and the psych ward if I survive). I don't know how long those will last though.

But I (also think I posted this before, but I can't remember [anything]) also am not sure if I want my life to end. No, I don't want my life to end. At least, I don't think that. I want to be locked up in a psych ward. I want to have to be forced to go to a psychiatrist. I want anti-depressants to help me through these times that I can barely cope with. I want to recover. And I need rest to help me with that.

[DoctorNewbie]

If you want a temporary fix, sleep. It will get you through this bad bit of it, at least some of it. Just get through this one, and it will be easy. Just get though this one and you'll be fine.

Otherwise, ask your parents about a psychiatrist. I'm absolutely positive that they would allow and even encourage it, if you think it will help.

PM me, I'll be on for a while. :)

[Amaryllis]

Sweetheart, why don't you see a psychiatrist? Unless you're already seeing one? If they aren't helping, find another. It's all about trial and error. You'll probably have to be in several psychiatric wards before you find one that actually helps.

You're such a kind, lovely, understanding, strong and wonderful guy. You've always been there for me. I'm so sorry I haven't been for you. I will try my best to talk to you. It's just, I'm usually in school when you're online. I'm so sorry if I've rubbed off as uncaring.

There's a lot to live for. You have this life to do whatever you want to do and be whoever you want to be. Try your best to smile, laugh, even if you don't want to. Open up and talk to people. Live.

Cry when you need to but don't stay miserable. Try to be okay, if not happy.

Love,
Amaryllis

[tatia]

you can share your problem with your God at night. Tell him everything that you need to share, I hope you will feel better

[CreditCardRepayment]

Hey Dont be in depression my friend. Make sure you have a happiness in your life or in your body which can able to help others as I am helping you. I thought I would like to help you. Helping other help me to be in good will. I just wanna say you that you are a precious son of the god that has all the qualities which the nature has given you. Just be like a good person. Depression is not a good things. Try to focus on what you have in your life. And also have a list what you want in your life. While writing these list you will feel the power in your body which will help you to get that you want it. Try to imagine that you have all that you have in your list. I love these techniques everyday and I can't able to see any thing that I dont have in my life because I am imagine that all things that I want it. These imagination power is wonderful.
Hope these would motivate you.
Have a good life my friend
Bye Take Care