Megson
November 1st, 2011, 03:31 PM
Doesn't sound so long, but it feels like a long time. I'm having a wonderful week so far. I'm happy for a change, and even though I have a few small baseless urges, I haven't felt the need to cut at all.
What's funny is nothing changed. Everything is pretty much the same. I'm just in a better mood for some reason. That seems pretty odd to me?
Something that has me worried, though, are my scars. I had been using a new instrument. Cuts better, but for some reason, it doesn't scar like my old one did. The old one didn't even cut deeply or painfully.
Anyways, my scars are fading too fast. I don't want them to be there forever... But they're comforting to have for right now. Don't ask me why or how, they just are. I like having them there. I'm worried about how I'll deal with it when they're gone, if I let them fade that long...
What's funny is nothing changed. Everything is pretty much the same. I'm just in a better mood for some reason. That seems pretty odd to me?
Something that has me worried, though, are my scars. I had been using a new instrument. Cuts better, but for some reason, it doesn't scar like my old one did. The old one didn't even cut deeply or painfully.
Anyways, my scars are fading too fast. I don't want them to be there forever... But they're comforting to have for right now. Don't ask me why or how, they just are. I like having them there. I'm worried about how I'll deal with it when they're gone, if I let them fade that long...