Just.. lol.

[Quick_Sylver]

Juuuuust fucking talked to eldest sister on facebook.

She's probably fucking drunk.
But that doesn't mean it doesn't fucking hurt.

I know she doesn't know I'm gender questioning/queer.
I know she doesn't know I'm a lesbian in Canada's Texas.
I know she doesn't know damn near anything about me.

All the same, it still fucking hurts to be told I should accept the bullshit going on around me as "that's what teenagers do".

This isn't what teenagers do. Just..

Why should I be ostracized for being different, then others go and say "get over it, you're minority"?

On top of this, I fucked up a friendship or five today..

And I have fucking counseling tomorrow fucking evening.
Fucking hell... Just going to go curl up and sob for a while I fucking think.
Then on goes my mask again and I'll be the perfect innocent little fucking kid again.

lolmeakid.

Direct quote from my mother: I think you skipped being a kid.
Nah, really?
Just needed to vent. *shrug*

&&sorry for this posting weirdly and only half of it written. IDK wtf I did.

[XxMurderedKissesxX]

Im not exactly sure what happened with your sister...Did she make hurtful comments? I understand how annoying it is to be told to "suck it up,your nothing but a kid with no opinions" or whatever,along those lines. Maybe your counselor could further help you with the things that seem to be bothering you. Im a gender questioning bisexual,so I understand where your coming from. I have ALOT of family that say hurtful,narrowminded,and just plain mean things to me all the time. I could say dont let it bug you,but I know its not that easy. Finding ways to vent your feelings might help. Music,painting,writing,jogging,or just completely freak and scream your head off ( Lol im bad for that >.<) What if u try different ways to get those around you to listen and understand you have a voice that wants to speak? You could always bring that up in counseling?? Im sorry I couldnt be much help : /. Hope u feel better ^^

[Quick_Sylver]

She basically told me to "accept other teenagers because that's who they are!" when they're the ones who refuse to accept me..

*shrug* Just basically the straw that broke the camel's back.

I paint, I dance, I sing, I listen to music. I self harm and act like a lunatic. I've kicked peoples asses before so I know that. Just everything completely hit me then. *shrug*

But thank you for your words and :hug: for gendershit.