weak pathetic little thing

[damaged goods33]

I have been rid of cutting for a couple months now and I used to be okay but lately all I can think about is cutting and I want to do it so damn bad I know I'm going to relapse and I'm terrified if I do my mom will hate me forever but I'm not strong enough to fight cutting forever :(

[SilentlyCrying]

You can do it. I believe in you.

[Nexus]

You will be okay. Keep a journal. Each time you begin having these feelings, jot it down. Go into as much detail as necessary. When you feel up to it, show somebody you trust (perhaps your mom) your journal. Eventually you'll be able to reflect on it with ease. I'm sure your Mom doesn't hate you, but I definitely she'll be proud of you if she sees you making such an effort.

Good luck.

[damaged goods33]

Thanks guys!

[kenoloor]

You will be okay. Keep a journal. Each time you begin having these feelings, jot it down. Go into as much detail as necessary. When you feel up to it, show somebody you trust (perhaps your mom) your journal. Eventually you'll be able to reflect on it with ease. I'm sure your Mom doesn't hate you, but I definitely she'll be proud of you if she sees you making such an effort.

Good luck.

Excellent suggestion. Also, I would suggest getting involved in a project. Something that you enjoy doing that you can really immerse yourself in. I've found that, for me, working on something really hard helps a lot.
I believe in you.

[Amaryllis]

Just because you feel the need to relapse does not mean you're weak or pathetic. It just means you're stumbling a bit. Pick yourself back up. Keep trying. Resist the urges. It'll take some time and effort but you can do this. I'm always here if you need someone to vent to. Stay strong, sweetheart.

Love,
Amaryllis

[Aubrie]

I know it's tough, but in the end it's worth it. Yes, it'll be tough and it'll be scary, but just stay strong. You may relapse a few times, but that's just part of recovery. Stay strong <3

[damaged goods33]

Its so hard to get my mind off of it. There are so many things that trigger it. Depression kicks my butt everyday and twice on sundays. I feel lost and hopeless
Thanks everyone for trying to help me it means the world to me <3

[Abyssinian]

Have you ever heard of the butterfly trick?

Whenever you feel like cutting, draw a butterfly on your wrist and name it after someone you love. You can't wash it off, you have to let it fade... And it dies if you cut.

I know that's depressing, but it's worked for someone I know really well! They cut once and "killed" their best friend. They felt so horrified that they never cut again.

[AllThatYouDreamed]

Slipping up doesn't mean you're weak/pathetic, it means you're human. Getting past this shit takes a lot, cutting affects your mind and acts as a coping mechanism. Removing that is hard, especially w/o help

[amscramhick]

You can fight it. Just think of all the people who care about you. And the fact that you probably dont WANT to do that to your body. You can do it. I believe in you. So do others. You can do it.

[damaged goods33]

Thanks everyone for your support<3

[Dancergurrl]

You are not weak at all. You stopped for a couple months, right? I've never been able to stop that long. You're already stronger than I am. Keep trying. Even if you mess up, that's alright, just persevere. It will be worth it in the end. I believe in you. <3

[damaged goods33]

Thanks Becky! I wish you the best of luck in your recovery also if you ever need anything feel free to contact me.

[Dancergurrl]

I will. :) My email is [email protected] I pretty much only go on these on my Nintendo DSi because if mum saw SI stuff in the computer history, she'd flip...But if you want to contact me, we can talk further that way.

[SirentoCries]

I'm a coward, I'm scared of infections from cutting. So I stopped, though I stopped, I had more suicidal thoughts, I cried more and more, my heart torn apart more. But anyhow, don't cut, physical damage can be seen while mental damage can only be sought.

[damaged goods33]

Thanks Becky I will contact you! Eris your definitely not a coward ! You should be proud that you were able to stop cutting that is such a great thing ! You can get through this its one of the hardest things to do but I believe in you! You should be thankful and proud that you stopped cutting and if you need someone to talk to I'm here

[Sacraficialsteak]

Keep strong mate, we all believe in you :)

[damaged goods33]

Thanks <3