What do you guys think

[ryantombs]

soo basically ive been clean for about 3 weeks and well idk im really triggered i really want to cut and i feel trapped in my own mind and i just want to escape and stuff... someone took my knife (approx 80$) so i would stop (even tho i did). many times i would just hold the knife its almost i guess like a false sense of security. and now im like really craving that and idk. does anyone else get these feelings where you might not want to cut but you just hold a razor or knife?

[Ambrosia]

Yeah, I do, but I don't recommend holding anything sharp that may be used to cut, even if you don't want to cut. It can lead to you actually cutting.

It's common to get the urges. You're trying to stop doing something you've become addicted to. But even getting close to the thing you're stopping can be bad for you. It's like a recovering alcoholic holding a bottle of wine "just to hold it". Not a good idea.

[StoppingTime]

It is an urge. Everyone has them, and that's OK. But I really don't think that just holding the knife would help you at all. If it is there, no matter how much you don't want to do it, its still a possibility. It may seem like it is helping, but it is only increasing your desire to cut.
There is one main thing I always tell people to stress when they are trying to recover. Be with people. Be with them, call them, do anything that lets you interact with others. This way, you will be focussing your energy and thoughts on them. The best is to be with them, that way, you can't be alone, so there is no way you could do anything.
It is never an easy thing to do, but you'll get there. If you believe its possible, then it is.


Good Luck!
~StoppingTime

[AlmostHomeless]

Sometimes when I feel really stressed it reminds me of how I feel when I panic and cut so I just stick my hand in my pocket and feel the engraved lettering on the braces wax container that I keep my razor in. It makes me feel safe.

[ryantombs]

stephen304 thats almost like how i feel with it in the beginning of stopping i would just hold it and stuff but i think you guys are right
thank you :)