I don't know what to do with myself anymore

[adrenaline500mg]

No one likes me. I'm ugly.. I'm insane. i hate being me. I'm not gonna go into details on why i think all these things.. But idk, when i look in the mirror, or when i look at pictures of me i see this horribly ugly monster. i hate my face, my body. And no one likes me. Everyone always makes up exuses not to hang out with me. they all go out and have fun and never think to invite me...

I desperately want to die. Why should i live to make others happy if i can;t be happy myself? I'm not even making anyone happy anyways.

No one likes me. i don't like me.

I just want to be normal!.

[Bath]

You have no clue how much I relate. It used to be like this all the time for me... now it's turned into a roller coaster and it keeps going away and coming back.

If it's really affecting your life in negative ways, I'd recommend trying to find a passion. Start doing something you love, if you can. Painting, dancing, something? I don't know if you've already tried, but if you haven't, it's a nice place to start.

If that doesn't work, I would recommend seeing a therapist or psychologist. Take the time to find a good one that shares your morals and values.

And most importantly, hang in there. You are SO not alone in this at all. I know it sucks bad but you'll get through it, I promise.

"I spin and weave and knit my words and visions until a life starts to take shape.

There is no magic cure, no making it all go away forever. There are only small steps upward; an easier day, an unexpected laugh, a mirror that doesn't matter anymore.

I am thawing.”
-Wintergirls

[Nexus]

I'm sorry that you're feeling like this. Keep in mind these are only feelings, and feelings alone won't kill you. Chin up. It's a mere transitional phase for you, so try not to let it weigh you down so much.

I went through so many friends in high school. Lack of interaction with others is usually a result of a few obstacles. Try joining a few social clubs at your school. I joined key club in my freshman year and stayed until my junior year. I met so many people through that. I was also a part of marching band and jazz band as well as my school's soccer team.

Just through loose associations, you can make a lot of friends. I had crap-tons of people on facebook until I finally started pruning out kids I didn't talk to anymore. Not that I'm proud of loosing so many contacts, but that's just life - You mature and find that your peers from earlier periods of your life are no longer relevant to you. But in order for that to happen, you have to put yourself out there.

I have faith in you!

[Hollywood]

I'll be the first to tell you that, if that's you in the picture there, then you're not ugly at all. I'm not just saying that, you're attractive, although I understand completely how you feel about self appearance.

I would say, just don't worry about the jerks that are ignoring you. Why bother with them? They're obviously not your friends. Eventually, you'll run across someone just like you and you'll become best friends. It's better to wait for that than rush to hang out with some jerks.

As for the suicidal thoughts, I'll give you the generic answer. Suicide is not the answer. What if you were to take your life today? Maybe the best day of your life was going to be tomorrow? Maybe you'd meet the greatest person in the world next week? But now you'd never know, and everyone else would have nothing but unanswered questions.

Just try to find something you know you enjoy. I know that might be tough, but there are things you can do. As mentioned above, school activities might not be a bad idea. But really, just getting out of the house! Being out in the open always perks up my spirits, even if you're by yourself. Mall, theater, store, whatever! Fresh air is always a good thing.

If you want someone to talk to, though, my PM box is always open. Hopefully we can help you out more.

[mikeywrenn]

Firstly I'd like to say that it always gets better! You really just have to look to the things that make you feel good for your comfort, and kick everything else to the side.

You think you're ugly? Pah! Without being creepy, you're perfect the way you are. You need to believe this yourself, because nobody else's opinion matters.

I've had times when I've felt a little like this, and then I just think about all the things I do have, that I take for granted. We have a roof, a bed, a computer, we aren't starving... We've got such support, we need to realize how lucky we are, because if you were to really give up on everything now, all these things will disappear.

I really hope you take my very vague advice and look at what you have, I also like to think it helps you feel better and I wish you the best of luck.

[SirentoCries]

:| I'm sorry to hear that.
I don't have much friends too but I do have 2 to 3 really close frds. However we don't go to the same school anymore. I am a loner in my new school. I chose this path. I coped with being alone, friendless in my new school. I realized I can live without any and yes that is sad. that is why I also seek virtual frds, just to keep my life rolling....

I thought I was not normal and wanted to be normal. But then I found out I am just an average fecked up teen who wants to not be normal. So what do you say?

well, you could start to adjust yourself, change yourself little by little, maybe people would like you more.

However, I feel that if can't accept who you are, I don't think they suit to be friends at all. They just don't worth your time.

This is just my little advice, I had been a loner since kindergarten started. I was also not liked by my classmates, it is only until recently that I have 2 to 3 friends I can hang out with.

[adrenaline500mg]

Well. It seems i may have lost all my local friends. my only friends now live in other towns and sometimes even other states, a few who live in different countries here and there.. I figure whatever. I kinda stopped caring whether people liked me or not when i lost 3 of my friends to a misunderstanding like 2 days ago. Now these kids who i thought were my "real friends" i realised treated me like shit. And now they're always messaging me on facebook calling me names and shit and it's actually really not bothering me. I just reply with "lol, whatever hun get a life!" And leave it at that. Connecticuts not exaclty a huge state, but there's a lot of potential friends to be made. So yeah.