Scared...

[burgundyheart]

I want to cut.
Badly.
But I know I shouldn't.
And my parents know I cut.
Because I was dumb and fessed up the very first time I did it.
It was a freaking scratch.
And my mom sent me away to the hospital. And got me a therapist. Who I hate. And don't want. And don't need. Who my mom is going to keep paying for until I fess up about EVERYTHING, which is nothing because I have already said what needs to have been said.
So...
1. How do I stop cutting (don't mention the ice-cube thing. It doesn't work for me)
2. If I ever end up cutting, how do I hide it from my parents?
3. If I do cut and my parents find out, how do I explain to them?

P.S. I'm 13

[Love.Hate]

Personally I think you having a therapist is a good idea, just incase something happens at least you have someone to talk it out with.

How do you stop? Distractions are key at first.. There are so many out there, could be anything from running, to writing, to snapping an elastic band on your wrist when you feel the urge to do it. But you need the motivation to stop, something you want to stop for, that will drive you to stop. This might sound odd, but planning a bit of my future has helped me as I planned it without scars and depression. You need motivation.

I hope it doesn't come to this, because cutting isn't worth it. Dont damage your body needlessly. But long sleeves and such apply here.

To me honesty is the best policy, fess up. There is no point in trying to make excuses because they nearly always find out in the end.

[RustyRockets]

Please try and stick with your therapy as long as you can. It can be a pain but is normally so much better than having no outlet at all!
Make a big list of any activities or people or places that can hold your attention and distract yourself from bad thoughts when they come up. If that doesn't work try anything like tearing paper (or the hundreds of other suggestions you can find here). It's not good to think of how to hide them, it's more important to focus on not having them in the first place.

And keep talking on here, sometimes that helps more than anything and there will always be people around! These things help me anyway - so good luck.

Rus