You guys feel like this right?

[AlmostHomeless]

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[Bath]

I agree with you on the first half... the mood swings. The wanting to die out of nowhere, for no apparent reason. It's gotten so bad at one point, I started searching for pills to overdose on and then I realized... why am I doing this?

With the cutting, though, I've been arguing with myself recently... do it, don't, do it, don't. Most of the time "do it" wins, and I like absorbing the moment when I cut, I like feeling every bit of it. But I do relate to not knowing why sometimes. The desire will just come out of nowhere. I mean, sometimes there's a legit reason, but sometimes there isn't. I'll just be watching TV and I'll get a panic attack from some reason I don't remember and I'll persuade myself to cut.

No, you're not the only one who feels like this.

[Ambrosia]

No, you're not, it's very common. You are in all honesty not alone in the least bit!

I have taught myself to simply stop believing things are going well because it seems every time I say it out loud, or even think it, these feelings of despair wash over me like someones just dunked me in boiling hot water. Lots of people claim it's just "young hormones" but, right. They wouldn't be saying that if they experienced feelings so strong they can drive you to mutilate your own flesh.

What do you mean you don't remember what you did? Like, you can't remember doing it, or what drove you to it? That sounds pretty awful. I only do not remember hurting myself whenever it was small, petty, cuts. I always remember the big ones. The ones that happen when something just takes a hold of me. I understand what you mean by you would rather do something else. You don't want to cut, right? Yeah.

Believe me, kiddo. You are in no way alone. Not even in the least bit. And that's why we are all here. Because we can relate in some shape or form.

[AlmostHomeless]

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[xDarkAngelx]

Your definately not the only one. I've been depressed quite a few months now, and sometimes I get the feeling I want to die out of nowhere. It was only last night I had a blade pressed to my wrist wanting to do it but I have no idea what stopped me and I doubt it will be the last time.
At the moment I don't want to quit cutting for a couple of reasons. I like the whole moment when I do it. I get urges often and over different things, and quite often the urge can just come out of nowhere such as watching tv and i'll just go away and do it.

[AlmostHomeless]

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