i don't think anyone likes me...

[adrenaline500mg]

whenever I'm around friends i feel like they're all trying to get rid of me. I know for sure at least 2 of my friends like and i think that maybe if i was with these 2 in particular and just them i might be ok. but usually they're with other people as well. And i jsut don't think anyone likes me.

I've made a lot of mistakes in the past year. And everyone always makes jokes towards them. Particularly this one incident in a port-a-potty... They also make fun of my lisp, and it's not even that noticeable!!! And they joke about schizophrenia because sometimes i think i see something and i point it out and no one else can see it. I try to joke along, but it really hurts! Amy my 2 real friends know that it hurts me and joke about it with them!

There was actually this one situation in the cemetery.. we were walking to the cemetery and i was with some "friends" and they were walking a little fast for me because they're all tall and have long legs and i'm fat short with stubby legs. I was trying to catch up with them and i was actually having an asthma attack. I texted one of them to slow down becuase i have asthma and couldn't breathe. i saw him show the text to another one of the guys and say "we're winning" and laugh. We got to the cemetery and they left me alone by the statue which is rumored to move its head so i was freaking out. On top of not being able to breathe. And to top it all off i started coughing up blood AND i passed out. After i got up i texted one of the guys about this and they were texting me back some bullshit like "cool story bro" and "cry some more"

I've made a point not to hang out with these guys, but they're not the only ones who treat me this way. it's litteraly almost everyone! Whenever I'm hanging out and they treat me this way i "joke" around saying stuff like "i'm jsut gonna go home and kill myself" I say it in a joking way that makes it seems like i'm jsut playing along.. But i'm actually very serious about it. I've actually contemplated about jsut getting up, walking home and killing myself.

I'm just venting really. i don't expect any advice but if you can provide some it'd be much appreciated.

[Jupiter]

Hey listen, I like you. You seem pretty cool, and you're posts are preeeeee cool. Just try not to make too many threads!

[adrenaline500mg]

I can't help it. I need to vent a lot and everywhere else i go I'm automatically a "troll" or something else.

[Jupiter]

That's actually what blogs are for. You see, you've made like.. 7 threads. It's okay, but it gets a little annoying after a while. :)

[StoppingTime]

whenever I'm around friends i feel like they're all trying to get rid of me. I know for sure at least 2 of my friends like [me] and i think that maybe if i was with these 2 in particular and just them i might be ok. but usually they're with other people as well. And i jsut don't think anyone likes me.

Don't think about yourself like that. You aren't worthless, and people do care about you. If you have to helpful and supportive friends, that's great! If you are with them, and they treat you like a friend, then whoever they are with may do that as well. If they see that you aren't just trying to join them without knowing anyone, then I think they'd accept you. If you do hang out with all of them, how does it go usually?


I've made a lot of mistakes in the past year. And everyone always makes jokes towards them. Particularly this one incident in a port-a-potty... They also make fun of my lisp, and it's not even that noticeable!!! And they joke about schizophrenia because sometimes i think i see something and i point it out and no one else can see it. I try to joke along, but it really hurts! Amy my 2 real friends know that it hurts me and joke about it with them!
Don't let this stuff bother you. First off, the port-a-potty thing, whatever it was, how would you react if it happened to one of your friends? If it were me, I probably would have thought it was funny. Just take it as a joke, it isn't as serious as the others.
About the lisp though, that's different. That just makes them immature, and annoying. They know just as well as you do you can't control it, but to make themselves look better, they make others feel insignificant. Just ignore that, they are just being typical teenagers. There really isn't much you can do there, so just forget it, and understand why they do it.
The schizophrenia is the worst though. Have you been professionally diagnose with it? If so, and they know, it, then this is just like before. They know you can't control it, so they make fun of it. There really isn't any need to feel guilty about it. Maybe though, if they do it and it really gets to you, turn it around and ask how they would feel if they were being teased about a disorder they couldn't control. Hopefully, if it ever came to that, they'd understand. If you don't want to try that, ask a school consoler. They may not seem like help, but in these situations, they really can be.


There was actually this one situation in the cemetery.. we were walking to the cemetery and i was with some "friends" and they were walking a little fast for me because they're all tall and have long legs and i'm fat short with stubby legs. I was trying to catch up with them and i was actually having an asthma attack. I texted one of them to slow down becuase i have asthma and couldn't breathe. i saw him show the text to another one of the guys and say "we're winning" and laugh. We got to the cemetery and they left me alone by the statue which is rumored to move its head so i was freaking out. On top of not being able to breathe. And to top it all off i started coughing up blood AND i passed out. After i got up i texted one of the guys about this and they were texting me back some bullshit like "cool story bro" and "cry some more"

Like I said, its just classic teen behavior. They don't feel as if others are anywhere close to the importance of themselves. This really is serious though, and if you feel like your in medical danger again, don't listen to a word they say and get help. This will help you, of course, and will show them how horrible they were treating you. Again, with thing you can't control. and don't worry about being short. I've been shorter than all my friends my whole life, and they've made fun of me. I know I can't control it, so I just try to forget it.


I've made a point not to hang out with these guys, but they're not the only ones who treat me this way. it's litteraly almost everyone! Whenever I'm hanging out and they treat me this way i "joke" around saying stuff like "i'm jsut gonna go home and kill myself" I say it in a joking way that makes it seems like i'm jsut playing along.. But i'm actually very serious about it. I've actually contemplated about jsut getting up, walking home and killing myself.

Don't ever let things come to this. You have a purpose, you do matter, and you will see why. Just put the crap they say about you behind you, and if it goes on a lot, you need to talk to someone. Don't feel like you're being a burden to that person, because you won't be. It is really hard to keep the glass half full in these situations, but it will pay off. I can promise that.


I'm just venting really. i don't expect any advice but if you can provide some it'd be much appreciated.
The main thing to do is to believe in yourself. Believe you can get past some of the things they say, and go on. Believe you can be friends with them, and you will. You'll see, things will look up.


Good Luck, and don't ever hesitate to contact me about anything!

~StoppingTime/Steve

[adrenaline500mg]

Ok. well i told my 2 real friends to tell them to stop teasing me about some of the stuff. it's weird though, because my friend told me that the one who is the worst when it coming to making me feel like.. He told her that he feels bad about it. Personally i think he's full of shit and he's just trying to get with my friend. i know he likes her.. he likes her alot...

[StoppingTime]

Ok. well i told my 2 real friends to tell them to stop teasing me about some of the stuff. it's weird though, because my friend told me that the one who is the worst when it coming to making me feel like.. He told her that he feels bad about it. Personally i think he's full of shit and he's just trying to get with my friend. i know he likes her.. he likes her alot...

He may like your friend, but how can you know he isn't sincerely sticking up for you?

[Jupiter]

Yeah, maybe he really is trying to be a friend.

[DerBear]

Hey listen, I like you. You seem pretty cool, and you're posts are preeeeee cool. Just try not to make too many threads!

That's actually what blogs are for. You see, you've made like.. 7 threads. It's okay, but it gets a little annoying after a while. :)

Its not really nice to say that someones threads are annoying when they post too much.

whenever I'm around friends i feel like they're all trying to get rid of me. I know for sure at least 2 of my friends like and i think that maybe if i was with these 2 in particular and just them i might be ok. but usually they're with other people as well. And i jsut don't think anyone likes me.

I've made a lot of mistakes in the past year. And everyone always makes jokes towards them. Particularly this one incident in a port-a-potty... They also make fun of my lisp, and it's not even that noticeable!!! And they joke about schizophrenia because sometimes i think i see something and i point it out and no one else can see it. I try to joke along, but it really hurts! Amy my 2 real friends know that it hurts me and joke about it with them!

There was actually this one situation in the cemetery.. we were walking to the cemetery and i was with some "friends" and they were walking a little fast for me because they're all tall and have long legs and i'm fat short with stubby legs. I was trying to catch up with them and i was actually having an asthma attack. I texted one of them to slow down becuase i have asthma and couldn't breathe. i saw him show the text to another one of the guys and say "we're winning" and laugh. We got to the cemetery and they left me alone by the statue which is rumored to move its head so i was freaking out. On top of not being able to breathe. And to top it all off i started coughing up blood AND i passed out. After i got up i texted one of the guys about this and they were texting me back some bullshit like "cool story bro" and "cry some more"

I've made a point not to hang out with these guys, but they're not the only ones who treat me this way. it's litteraly almost everyone! Whenever I'm hanging out and they treat me this way i "joke" around saying stuff like "i'm jsut gonna go home and kill myself" I say it in a joking way that makes it seems like i'm jsut playing along.. But i'm actually very serious about it. I've actually contemplated about jsut getting up, walking home and killing myself.

I'm just venting really. i don't expect any advice but if you can provide some it'd be much appreciated.

I would ditch the ones that are being real nasty and keep the ones that are being resonable to you. I think friends support each other and by the sounds of it the ones that always tease you are not really nice firends

[adrenaline500mg]

That's hard. I'll go out expecting to just be with my real friends and then i'll show up these not-so-nice guys are there. Or they show up. So i end up just kinda being in the background. If they're there i just kinda sit and not say anything. Because if i'm just the wall flower they don't tease me. So whenever i go out planning to have a good time i end up coming home wishing i never actually went out.

Sometimes i think this is all my ex's fault. When we were going out.. i was going through i very difficult time. I was very clingy. I texted him everyday to come hang out and if he couldn't i'd get really depressed.. And when we did hang out i never wanted to leave him. There were times where we'd sit out front Target after it was closed and i'd just beg him to slep over or try to sleepover his place. Our theory was that we kinda started the relationship wrong.. We started going out when i ran away. So we were together 24/7 for several days. So that's what i was used to and i didn't want that to stop. And i tried a lot of dumb stuff. That's actually when the port-a-potty thing hapoened. We were drinking, a bunch of us. And I tried to fuck in the port-a-potty. Not my brightest moment. Sooo after we broke up he went around telling every body i was crazy and a whore. And all this other stuff.

And now I'm past that stage in my life. All that's in the past, and I'm trying to keep it there! I don't want to be constantly reminded of all my mistakes. I mean, i could take it if it was just like story telling and laughing joking around. Yeah it's something i can laugh about sometimes. But when it's constantly brought up in a negative way.. It really hurts.

I guess i should be explaining this to them.. You know, get my point across. I'm sure if they knew where i'm coming from they might lighten up a bit..

[anonymous53]

Anna, from what you've said you deserve way better than this. Leave this group of "Friends". Go hang with nice people :) Try going to the library some time. Us nerds are nice :D