I don't want to go on..

[xXl0sth0peXx]

Honestly... I hope I don't see past today. I don't wanna see tomorrow.. I don't want to live.. Everything's falling apart.. and I don't wanna see what tomorrow has to offer..

Home sucks.. I'm always getting yelled at over stupid stuff, such as requesting my own bottle of toothpaste because I think sharing toothpaste is disgusting.. I get called emo right to my face by my parents and brother.. they call me fat, ugly, horrible.. they've told me 'go die' before.. It's always yell at me, treat my brother with respect.. I can't trust them.. anytime I leave the house.. my heart flips because I'm wondering what they'll do today.. steal my money again? go through my room? whatever it may be.. Hell.. they even gave my bed to my brother and made me sleep on a fucking air mattress.. pathetic.. Maybe they're right.. I should die. It'd give everyone what they want.. Funny thing is.. this shit isn't even all that bad.. probably just my imagination just fucking me over.

Anyways.. we all know that it's obvious that the world is better off without me.

[Amaryllis]

Your family sounds -terrible-, Val. I'd slap them in the face if I could. Of course, leaving or calling social services isn't much of a possibility. However, how old are you know? Just a few years to go and you're free.

A lot of the time, the people we believe to be terrible once had terrible lives, too. Of course, that is no excuse to treat someone else that way. I remember my mum would tell me about how she was raped, I was 7 then. It was terrible. But, what's done is done, tomorrow's another day.

I strongly encourage you to stand up to them, sweetie. Tell them how much they're hurting you, right to the face. Tell them how you feel, how cruel they're being. How it makes you feel. They may not change but they will listen, some people will brush it off and call you a whiny angry little girl, I know my father did. But at least then, you've made them stop for a second.

The people we trust and love most are also the ones that often hurt us the most. You gotta be strong, V. Hold your head up high and stand your ground. If they disrespect you, look them in the eye and speak with a firm voice. Tell them exactly what they're doing. Life's a bitch and then you die, so screw the world and lets get high!

(Jks. Don't listen to that peace of advice. I just had to add that. Always wanted to say it and now I have. Yay.)

You can't control anyone else, you can't change them, but you can change yourself. Assholes will be assholes. Doesn't mean you should let them get to you. Fuck the fact that they're related to you! So what if they're older? What they're doing isn't right and according to the UNIVERSAL DECLARATION OF HUMAN RIGHTS, (insert blablabla here). Basically, no one can bring you down without your consent.

Love,
Faith and Trust