Hating my life

[abdheuuuchjc]

I hate my life , I wish I was dead. I stutter and hav an accent. EveryOne at school either makes fun of me or ignores me.people lost their faith in me so I lost my faith in people. The only two people in the world who like me are my bestfriend and his exgf and their fighting and I don't wanna choose sides. I'm failing 2 of the 6 classes I'm taking at school and my parents are going to send me to miliatary school. I hope I don't wake up tomorrow

[Dark Vamp]

I hate my life , I wish I was dead. I stutter and hav an accent. EveryOne at school either makes fun of me or ignores me.people lost their faith in me so I lost my faith in people. The only two people in the world who like me are my bestfriend and his exgf and their fighting and I don't wanna choose sides. I'm failing 2 of the 6 classes I'm taking at school and my parents are going to send me to miliatary school. I hope I don't wake up tomorrow

Sounds like you are dealing with a lot of things that are making you unhappy. Somethings we cannot change. Those things we have to accept rather than try to change. I don't think your accent might go away or your stutter, but those are things that are part of you, why change something that is unique of you? I think rather than seeing that as something to hate look at it from another perspective, take advantage of those things unique of you to help you.

Can you get tutoring? Talk at your school with you teachers to see if tutoring is an option they offer. Although I will say that stress and school work do not mix. There can be a relationship between your depression and bad school grades. That might explain why you have been doing poorly.

[Amaryllis]

I stutter and hav an accent.
Everyone has their faults. Stutters are something you didn't ask for. It's something you have to learn to live with. People will understand if you choose to let them understand. People will look pass it if you how how beautiful you are inside.

Accents make you unique, they're part of you. It says "Hey, I'm from (this this this)" I have an odd little american-malaysian-australian accent. I switch back and forth between accents all the time. I've learned to think of it as cute.

EveryOne at school either makes fun of me or ignores me.
Then change that. You have the power to change and be whoever you wanna be. People don't like you? Try harder to become a better person. If you don't want to or can't, who cares? The people who mind don't matter, the people who matter don't mind.

people lost their faith in me so I lost my faith in people.
I used to and honestly, still think that way. I'm trying to change though. Some people are worth putting your faith in. They are worth trusting and loving. I've met amazing people on VT. A lot of them are so much more than what they seem. They're really, really amazing and I respect them greatly. You will find people who are worth it. All you've gotta do is give them a chance. Give this world a chance. You can't judge an entire world based on 1% of the population.

The only two people in the world who like me are my bestfriend and his exgf and their fighting and I don't wanna choose sides.
Don't. Insetad, bring the 2 of them together. Tell them you love them both. It's hurting you.You're confused as to what to do. Speak up.

I'm failing 2 of the 6 classes I'm taking at school and my parents are going to send me to miliatary school.
-Only- 2 of 6. You're passing most of your classes. Tell your parents you're doing the best you can, you're doing well, definitely much better than most. Just because they're your parents doesn't mean they can push you around.

I hope I don't wake up tomorrow
And what if you do? Wake up tomorrow and smile. You're a new person. It's a new day. It's a new life. A whole new chance for you to do better. Take the opportunity, hold it tight, treasure it and use it.

Love,
Faith and Trust

[Kaius]

I hate my life , I wish I was dead. I stutter and hav an accent. EveryOne at school either makes fun of me or ignores me.people lost their faith in me so I lost my faith in people. The only two people in the world who like me are my bestfriend and his exgf and their fighting and I don't wanna choose sides. I'm failing 2 of the 6 classes I'm taking at school and my parents are going to send me to miliatary school. I hope I don't wake up tomorrow

Trouble at school is something alot of people on here face and alot of those people overcome it. People may make fun of you but you need to try and ignore it, the more you take notice of it and take it to heart the more they're going to do it. Losing your faith in people might help at the moment but soon it might come as more of a hindrance than a help. They aren't worth the trouble of feeling like this believe me, they're low lives and soon they'll get whats coming to them.

You're letting whats happening at school affect how you learn and I think you really need to tell someone whats going on because its only going to make things worse for you in the long run if you don't. You dont need nor deserve the trouble you're getting but it will only stop with you taking control. I can see ignoring might be a problem but really telling someone and then ignoring the people are the only choice if you dont want to let them beat you.

I have a stutter and an accent too, hell my voice hasn't even broken properly yet but I haven't let peoples taunts and jibes get to me, if i did I would've quit a long time ago. Even people I considered friends did it until i realized I don't need those type of people around me.

Think about the reason you're in school. You're there to learn and get the best education possible. I know being bullied is not an easy thing to go through and its going to knock your confidence but remember, the more time they spend doing it, the less likely they are to be the ones that succeed. Use Military school as a reason to do well, use your future as another reason and don't let them win alright? I'm here if you need to talk, you can email or pm me anytime you like.

[abdheuuuchjc]

My parents don't care at all my grades haven't improved so they stopped taking me to the shrink

[Jupiter]

go ahead and text me, man. :) things will get better.

[StoppingTime]

I hate my life , I wish I was dead.
I know you've probably heard this a thousand times, but things will improve, whether you can see it now or not.
The most crucial part of this is believing in yourself. If you don't, then it is unlikely things will change any time soon.


I stutter and hav an accent. EveryOne at school either makes fun of me or ignores me.

Why be ashamed of this? Obviously, its out of your control, and they know that as well as you. They just need to find something about someone else they can make fun of to lose their insecurities over themselves. Don't let it get to you though. They are just being jerks, and sometimes, there isn't anything you can do about it. Don't let things like this bother you. It is hard, but think about why these people are doing this. Do they have any real reasoning?


people lost their faith in me so I lost my faith in people. The only two people in the world who like me are my bestfriend and his exgf and their fighting and I don't wanna choose sides.
Can you still talk to them without "choosing sides"? If they are good friends, they will put their petty behavior aside and focus on you. I don't think your choice in their lives will make a difference on whether they can help you or not.


I'm failing 2 of the 6 classes I'm taking at school and my parents are going to send me to miliatary school. I hope I don't wake up tomorrow

Again, believe in yourself. Nobody is saying to get an A+ in every class, but you will get there. Talk to people you truly trust. They can help you. Tell your parents how you are doing as well, if you feel comfortable. I really hope they will be able to understand what you go through just to do what you have already done. If you can find a school counselor, and gain their trust, this can help as well.

If you ever need anything, don't hesitate to PM me. You can get through this, and things will look up. I can promise you that. (I will try to add more to this later, I was kind of in a rush.)



Good Luck with everything!
~StoppingTime/Steve

[Jupiter]

^ couldn't have said it better.

[abdheuuuchjc]

Another shitty day failed three tests

[StoppingTime]

You will improve. Nobody's saying you should get straight A's, but you do have to try. And believe that that you can do it.

[abdheuuuchjc]

The problem us in super smart I just don't apply myself

[Tenoramic]

I hope you will be fine. I know life sucks i know but try to think of something that make u happy and meaningful.

[davinabenet147]

Depression is one the serious cause of suicide and I don't think in these days we have everything but we are in the depressed than ever as per as the facilities are coming we are depressing, the reason is why the Muslim s not so depressed and the suicide ratio is less in Muslims because We believe on Allah and His Last Prophet (Hazrat Mohammad)(Peace be upon him) and the last book of Allah's prophet Hazrat Mohammad Peace be upon him.

[abdheuuuchjc]

I'm not religious

[Israel1]

Hi,
I always use this description but I think it works, life is like a card game you will get bad hands and sometimes you will load but you can win and eventually you will get a good hand. And while you have a stutter I have a problem aswell. I am 14 and 5.3! that is small and I used to get the piss taken but know they don't even care. Everyone on school cocks up on grades atleast once but you will do better I promis you.

Ever want to talk I am here.

[abdheuuuchjc]

I've always gotten a bad hand every hand at this entire game

[logan fields]

hi ethan i probably shouldnt be giving any advice because i feel a lot like you do most of the time and even thought about suicide to but dont think id ever really do that. when i get down it helps me to come here and just talk because you say you only have two friends but is that really true because ive met some pretty awesome people here at vt and im sure you have to. the thing is your not alone and i will be your friend anytime ok. we just need to stick together and never give up.

[abdheuuuchjc]

I've talked here but everyone says the same thing and I still want to kill myself

[abdheuuuchjc]

Found out the other day there was a Facebook group called "we hate Ethan rector" 647 members one of my few friends made a "we like Ethan rector "" Facebook page 5members. Both pages got shutdown by the school

[mikeywrenn]

If you add me on skype 'mikeywrenn' we could have a little chat if you'd like.
Then again;
I've gone through small depressive stages in my life and I always look back at them as if they weren't really there. The biggest thing you ever have to fight is yourself, you have to try and convince yourself that it's all going to be fine, because it is.
As opposed to being negative about this situation, be positive about the future. Going to a military college could actually be one of the best things that happen to you, in fact. A military college would place you on a level playing field, and if anybody was bullying you/being over the top, they'd be dealt with. You'd also be drilled into the right frame of mind to 'soldier on' (yes, shitty pun, hope you smiled) and continue on how you'd like.

I just hope you the best of luck with all of this, I truly hope you feel much better after reading this.

EDIT: Those facebook groups don't mean all of those people hate you, or that any in fact /HATES YOU/. The fact is that two people can start a group, invite all of their friends, then everyone invites all their friends and nobody even knows what the group is about. Nobody hates you, this is simply over-the-top banter.