Not myself anymore.

[schrei jess]

Ive been having subtle urges again. Not sure why, everything is great. But something is just...not right. Im off, un-even, I dont feel like myself. Something just isnt...right. And my mind is telling me that if I cut, Ill be myself again...that Ill feel okay again. I know that I dont want to start any of that again, it's been weeks since Ive cut or burned, I dont plan on going back if I can help it. But how do I feel like myself again? Self-harmer is who Ive been for years, I dont know what to do with myself anymore, Im just so fucking off! How do I fix this?

[thesphinx]

Do you have any hobbies? or things you really enjoy. what is the thing that gets you through the day?
if you can figure that out try doing the thing you love it will remind you of yourself.
i like to paint and do art and it reminds me of myself when i feel off like that.

[Evrythng_im_not]

well we certainlly don't want you going back to self-harm. That's not who you are now, it's who you were then. Try to keep yourself busy. If that doesn't work snap a rubberband on your wrist. It's gives a sting that feels like a cut without actually cutting. Just don't do it often.

You aren't a self-harmer anymore. You're getting better and becoming who you REALLY are. Try not to get sidetracked and go back to the bad side.

[schrei jess]

I dont have hobbies. The only thing I like doing is going on the computer which I now have limited time on, an hour and 30 minutes a day, maybe 2 hours, and that really isnt much considering I had unlimited time before the hospital. I like to write, and I have two stories but I only like to write when I can type it on the computer, writing takes too much time and I cant fix mistakes easily which drives me crazy.

And I used to do the rubberband thing, but I would do it so much that I bruised my wrist. It doesnt help me very much, and it just gets annoying as I cant stand to wear anything on my arms.