Trying-but-failing
October 17th, 2011, 08:33 PM
So like with almost every girly story, there was a guy. He was a jock and everybody knows that jocks dont go out with band geeks well usualy not. But this guy he had broke up with his gf and even though he said we were like brother and sister he would always touch my arm in that loving way he gave me hugs and put his arms around me. He did all the things that simply ment i was his we wernt going out and i kept telling people to stop saying that we should because it just would never happen today i found out he got a new gf and im totaly crushed not that i would let anyone see that. Everythings been getting tense lattly and i opend up, i think i actualy started to trust him which is weard because i don't trust anyone for this exact reason. I let him get to know me and things about me and he just abandond me like everyone else. I just want to cut so bad now, it was always there for me and i think its been 2 or 3 weeks since i last did but i just hurt so much now and i think i need it again because hes not here. I'v been waiting for someone like him for 2 years. Someone who i could relate to and be honist with, it's just not working for me. Nothing is. I tried, at least i can say that i tried to conect with people and it got spat back in my face. I just want to shut down right now. I want it all to go away and i have to cut to do that. How stupid i am for trusting someone. It's my number one rule Dont trust anyone and i broke it what else was i expecting?