Did I do something wrong?

[Bob_]

Okay, so here's the story. I started talking to a girl in my grade, and actually got to know her really well. However, I was too scared of losing the closeness between us by asking her out. Well we talked almost every day, and about 8ish months later, she tells me that she liked me back then, but never said anything. I was actually very mad at myself, but I got over it. We kept talking for a few more months, then I started to like her again. I felt that she did too, but now we were best friends. Our relationship was mildly sexual, though we never kissed/did anything involving a loss of clothing. It was hard to say what to do, so I kept doing what we've been doing. BAD IDEA. After a year and around 4 months, another guy was beginning to flirt with her (don't forget, her and I weren't dating, despite our extreme closeness). I eventually got concerned, and said something. She told me 'it wasn't like that.' I knew this wasn't true, though. It got worse and worse, and eventually, she went to a dance with him, after lying to me about going with her. But I went to have fun with friends. She spent the whoe thing dancing with him, and I was pissed. I intentionally hit him a few times, and made it look like an acccident. Later that night, knowing the future, I told her to f**k off, and she knew she deserved it, even though I'm not an angry person. It was the next morning, they starting dating, and I was dead inside for days.

So now I'm over it, but I still have mixed emotions about her. As a friend put it, "you just lost all respect for her." And I also cannot trust her, and don't even talk to her. She knows that I feel awkward around her. Her boyfriend is one of the most disliked people in my life, since he's an lying jerk who doesn't respect others. I know flirt with others, though. But it just feels odd, even now.

How should I feel about her? And what did I do wrong? I just want the whole thing either gone or fixed...

P.S. This is probably not even half the story of our relationship, but I believe the point was made, and I'm sick of typing this on my phone.

[Bob_]

Or nothing... I'd appreciate someone's honest help. Not trying to be rude, though.

[spires]

dood forget here move on show her that u moved on and u dont care bout her act like she doesnt exist and get u another girl to talk. and dont just be friends wen u start likeing another girl ask her out cause being just friends dont work u alway end up likeing her

[Bob_]

I get what you're saying, and I want to do that, but it's just weird when she was most of my life, & the only one I had there for me. And It's odd, but I've never really felt like I did with her than with anyone else. I would like to get over her and move one, but there's something stopping me... It's probably got something to do with her being the only girl I've told I love, and how I always would. Like, Ugghh, go away emotions.

[Hollywood]

There's pretty much nothing you can do at this point. She's doing her own thing now, and it's probably best for you to do the same (easier said than done, believe me, I know). I don't think you did much wrong, she just got caught up with another guy and was probably a little crazy because of it. But she did lie to you, which was indeed wrong of her considering you were good friends.

If you can't trust her or stand to be around her boyfriend, then it's best to just move on. I've always said, at our age, it's not too important to be in a relationship. Very, very few 'high school sweethearts' go on to marry, and even fewer stay married. Just keep your head up, there will be plenty more girls.

Hope this helps!