I'm always alone :(

[ZzKingz]

I won't say any names, so I'll just call my friends A, B, C, D, and E.
A is definitely my best friend, he's always there for me, and he's one of my only friends I can talk to about anything. So that's good.

B is so fun to be around. Very funny and I can freely express myself in his presence. But he's kind of a douchebag, the kind of douchebag you want to be around for some reason. And it's soo hard to make plans with him. This weekend I had four days off so I called him and asked if he wanted to go to Reinke Bros with me (that's like the Halloween Mecca where you can play dress-up like the pros lol). He said surety at he would say yes but he's busy. So I ask if he can go later this weekend, but he failed to give me any kind of answer to that other than maybe (that was on day one of the four day weekend). So we never hang out outside of school.

C has been my friend for the longest, since second grade. Over the years he's been depressed but he's getting a lot better. He's one of my best friends as well, and I can always talk to him, but I can't be confident that he'll be quiet about it.

D is a good friend, but he's a little mean at times. He's the kind of friend that you can talk to, but he just might judge you for it.

C is a good friend too. She's always in cross country though.

So what's the problem? The problem is that I never hang out with any of them. It's easy to get together with C, but I'm his only friend and he never makes plans, he just leaves it to me. And I might as well just call him, because he's frankly no fun to be around. Whenever I try to introduce him to new music or go somewhere fun he's kind of a buzz kill about it. A might be a good bet, but he's often busy. B is with his other friends a lot, like every Friday playing Minecraft. I guess I could tag along but that feels weird. I've gotten self-conscious about that lately. Like I said before I want to do something fun, I don't want to play Minecraft. And ever since I went out to smoke weed with D and a few other friends and my parents tracked me down with Find My iPhone and busted me, he hasn't wanted to hang out with me (I suspect he's just scared of my parents but I'm not so sure). And E lives far away, is constantly working on weekends, and does sports during the week.

I don't know, it's kind of hard to put loneliness and depression into words, but I guess I feel like I should have more of a life than this.

[EpicCookie]

Hehe my best friends your B. Awsome, funny, but a total ass.

[itsthat0n3kid]

i think maybe you just should make some new friends?
if you wanna talk about it or anything else just message me.
-good luck,
chris

[Amaryllis]

Firstly, don't rely on anyone too much in this world because even your shadow leaves you when you're in darkness. You're going to find yourself in situations such as these in the future, sweetheart. Being alone is part of life. Hell, being alone most of the time may be what you have to go through. As unfortunate as it seems, your friends' lives do not revolve around you. So it's up to you to make a life for yourself.

Everyone feels lonely at times, it may seem unbearable but know that it isn't permanent. Maybe one day you'll find someone you click with, someone you just manage to spend a lot of time with or maybe you won't. You gotta learn to be able to adapt to any situation. I never see any of my friends after school, hell, before last year, my mum didn't even let me go to sleepovers or parties. She still doesn't let me wander around or make my own plans, though.

See, my mum's incredibly clingy. You don't want to end up like her, sweetheart. Dependant on the love and company of others. You gotta learn to be your own best friend because, you can change your friends and you will change friends in your life time. Friends come and go but you're stuck with yourself for the rest of your life.

As for that friend of yours you find boring, well, maybe that's because he's suffering from depression and can't find the energy in him to try to be happy or even pretend. As for the friend who plays minecraft, hell, maybe he thinks you're boring for not playing minecraft. If you wear pink shades, the world will be pink. Life is how you look at it and loneliness is in your mind. You can think of it as some alone time with yourself where you can be, do, say what you want or you can sit there and mope. Your pick.

Love,
Faith and Trust

[Shenron]

Firstly, don't rely on anyone too much in this world because even your shadow leaves you when you're in darkness. You're going to find yourself in situations such as these in the future, sweetheart. Being alone is part of life. Hell, being alone most of the time may be what you have to go through. As unfortunate as it seems, your friends' lives do not revolve around you. So it's up to you to make a life for yourself.

Everyone feels lonely at times, it may seem unbearable but know that it isn't permanent. Maybe one day you'll find someone you click with, someone you just manage to spend a lot of time with or maybe you won't. You gotta learn to be able to adapt to any situation. I never see any of my friends after school, hell, before last year, my mum didn't even let me go to sleepovers or parties. She still doesn't let me wander around or make my own plans, though.

See, my mum's incredibly clingy. You don't want to end up like her, sweetheart. Dependant on the love and company of others. You gotta learn to be your own best friend because, you can change your friends and you will change friends in your life time. Friends come and go but you're stuck with yourself for the rest of your life.

As for that friend of yours you find boring, well, maybe that's because he's suffering from depression and can't find the energy in him to try to be happy or even pretend. As for the friend who plays minecraft, hell, maybe he thinks you're boring for not playing minecraft. If you wear pink shades, the world will be pink. Life is how you look at it and loneliness is in your mind. You can think of it as some alone time with yourself where you can be, do, say what you want or you can sit there and mope. Your pick.

Love,
Faith and Trust

This is most likely the best advice you are going to get. I agree with this post 100%.

Now for my two cents. You have to choose to have a life. You can not rely on other people to make plans for you and invite you places. Get out, do some things on your own. Make it a point to make some new friends that have the same interests as you. You need to take the initiative, not wait for it to fall in your lap. If you feel up to it, talk to the friends you already have and tell them that you feel a little left out as of late. If you think they will respond well to that then I would try that. The point is, you are going to have to make this happen yourself, it isn't going to fix itself.

Let me know if there is anything else I can do for you.