Why do you do it?

[Jupiter]

1. Why did you do it in the first place?
2. Why are you still doing it?
3. If you quit, why did you?
4. Who helped you?

Sorry if this offends anyone, but I'm really curious.

[ryantombs]

1. Why did you do it in the first place?- stress and mostly just something that i could control, it gives that slight few second release of stress but comes back just worse for me atleast
2. Why are you still doing it?- there are still triggers for me and still something i can control
3. If you quit, why did you?- i want to im starting today i think hopefully
4. Who helped you?- my ex gf (who oddly was a major reason i started) and still my bestfriend now just took my knife yesterday and cried so now i feel when im hurting myself someone else knows and cares and shes the last person i want to hurt but yet still feel like its a lie

[Jupiter]

thats a nice story there, i hope you go through with it :)

[ReasonsForWeeping]

1. Why did you do it in the first place? i started b/c it made me feel better it made all of the pain go away what triggered it was the abuse i was going thro and yelling v.v i just couldnt take it 2 years after i started cutting a started burning
2. Why are you still doing it? it hushes the demons
3. If you quit, why did you? i have tried but failed every time
4. Who helped you? no one ever really helped me

[xdancing_for_rainx]

1. Why did you do it in the first place?- Mainly stress at home from my mother, along with being picked on at school and a low self-esteem. Guess in a way allowed for me to be in control of who/what hurt me as well.
2. Why are you still doing it?- I don't care enough to quit anymore. It still helps me to cope, and gives me the punishment I feel I deserve.
3. If you quit, why did you?- N/A
4. Who helped you?- I've had things that were supposed to help me, though nothing has. (Things like [partial] hospitalization/IP, therapists, meds, etc.) Tried getting help through my church for a while, but that essentially amounted to nothing in the end.

[Fiction]

1. Why did you do it in the first place?
I'm not really sure tbh. I remember at times seeing it as a way to stop myself feeling numb after a lot of things where going on in my life, but the first time I started doing it properly was just an accidental injury followed by morbid curiosity. Then I found it helped me feel better and I carried on.
2. Why are you still doing it?
I still get majorly triggered to do it sometimes. I usually associate it with anger and hate towards myself nowadays. When I get in certain moods I get really bad urges and it's all I want to do.
3. If you quit, why did you?
I haven't quit, but i'm doing it a lot less often and I see that as being well on the way to quitting. I stopped because I had someone to stop for, and because that person gave me a lot of things I hadn't had before- someone to talk to, hope for the future and someone to just generally brighten my day and give me a reason to get up for each morning. I guess a big part is not wanting to hurt him anymore either.
4. Who helped you?
The person I mentioned above- my boyfriend.

[Tristin.]

1. Why did you do it in the first place?
I was spiraling out of control, i had lost the boy i loved, i felt alone and wanted attention from my parents, i constantly had this never ending sense of boredom and i was doing anything to break the monotony. Cutting gave me this.
2. Why are you still doing it?
I do not cut as often now, infact i last cut 5 weeks ago
3. If you quit, why did you?
I quit for a while, as i felt it was getting harder to stop/
4. Who helped you?
my brother, he is my anchor to reality, my rock. without him, id be dead.

[YesterdaysNews]

1. Why did you do it in the first place? My dad died and I felt like I could have prevented it, or at least prolonged his life.
2. Why are you still doing it? It conquers stress and calms me down when I'm upset.
3. If you quit, why did you? I haven't quit yet.
4. Who helped you? No one really. Therapy didn't help, my "friends" don't care.

[AppealToReason]

1. Why did you do it in the first place? For control.
2. Why are you still doing it? I don't know why really. Comfort maybe?
3. If you quit, why did you? Nope, haven't quit for good yet.
4. Who helped you? My VT buddy...Z. :P

[secretly_secret]

I'll PM you about this, Eric, but I'm not posting this here. (no offense, but my story is too triggering.)

[FullyAlive]

1. Why did you do it in the first place? I hadn't been good for a while and one day it just happened. I'd had an argument I think. Although tbh I don't really remember. After I just carried on.

2. Why are you still doing it? I use it to calm down, to get rid of the emotions that leave me overwhelmed. And mainly I do it when i am hurt to make my pain real I guess.

3. If you quit, why did you? I was trying mainly for my friends and my mother. I stopped trying now though I've no intention of quitting anymore.

4. Who helped you? Whilst I was still trying to stop I had a few close friends in real life and the internet some helped more than others, I also had a teacher at school.