I had a dream last night...

[Aceso]

That I reached the edge of the world. It was a massive peak, and I was sitting on a wall which was the boarder between the drop and the way in which I had come. I dreamt someone was sitting by me, and I remember rocking forward, wondering whether I was going to push myself off.
Then it flicked, to somewhere else. There was a massive tower, and some water below. I remember myself dreaming that I was at the top, and jumping over and over again as a suicide attempt. Then when failing, just climbing higher and jumping off again.
I feel so confused. I want to get better and I was getting better, but I feel like I'm failing again. I'm not saying the dream was symbolic, but it just seemed to describe perfectly how I feel. I feel so confused, out of place. I hate myself so much, I looked in the mirror and actually cried yesterday. I don't feel good enough, everything is getting to me.
I don't know what to do, I have these massive wants, these dreams. Wishing I could be someplace else, someone else, be able to just refresh and start again. I can't go back, no way. I just feel suicidal, but not in a way I've ever felt before. I want to be peaceful but I don't know how. :(

[Funkapotamus]

Someone on here said one of the most eye opening things to someone in your mindset.

"You should never hate yourself, because you has been with you through everything and is the one that will always be with you through everything"

It was something like that, but said better. The point is to not lose grasp of the one thing that is going to help you through to better things. YOU. It might sound a little cliche, but it's completely honest and true. And if you like who you are, there shouldn't be a worry about anything else. And when you love yourself, that's when good energy attaches itself to your aura.