day 4 of no self harm

[ReasonsForWeeping]

i dont think this is gonna work i hate myself so much... i stopped cutting and burning but i made myself puke today :l i felt so gross i had to find a way to punish myself without killing the butterfly ... :(

[secretly_secret]

You killed it. :(

[ReasonsForWeeping]

yeah i kinda expected that :(

[secretly_secret]

I'm sorry. Don't get bulimic too. Cutting and burning is wayyy more than enough.

[ReasonsForWeeping]

but i dont feel like it is i feel like such a bad person sometimes i feel like i dont even deserve too live i feel like i have no one to turn to in my life for help and its just so gross for me to be myself

[secretly_secret]

I know what you're feeling. PM me.

[ryantombs]

you have every single person on this website pretty much you can PM me anytime please. and you never know i was talking with my ex today (still my bestfriend) and lil arguement i showed her my scars and told her do you know how much you have to hurt to do this she turned away tears down her face she cares she cared just never showed it trust me people care you just dont see it

[ReasonsForWeeping]

no i really dont all i do is be everyone's rock but they never ask how i am ... not that i would tell them what im really like

[StoppingTime]

What is the main reason that is compelling you to do this? Don't go bullimic as well, that will only make things much worse. I am not encouraging you to self-harm, but don't do anything else. It is easier to stop one addiction, then to worry about stopping another soon.
PM me if you need anything, ~StoppingTime/Steve.

[ryantombs]

Sorry on my fone now but listen to saving you by chris ganim... Its such a beautiful powerful song... Its helping me stop please listen to it maybe yu will fall in love with it like i did
Much love
Ryan tOmbs

[ReasonsForWeeping]

yeah ... i feel so lost

[StoppingTime]

You will get there. The only thing that will get you there though is if you believe in yourself.