Tempted to cut...

[secretly_secret]

My mom just left to go to the gym.
With my cousins.
As usual.
She (and everyone else in my family) always treats them better than me!

I know that their parents are divorced and stuff, but I always get all this crap about "oh they had a bad childhood" and "oh they work soooo hard" when I do twice as much work as both of them combined!

Really really want to cut. But I've been trying not to.

Help please, anyone that's online! :(

[ReasonsForWeeping]

i know how u feel my brother and sister get treated better than me on daily bases everyone ignoring me while im the one that dose the all the house work plus i was emotionally abused for 15 years nope no nothing ...

[Jupiter]

I know it seems as though it's the only way out, but it isn't. Just get s stress ball, maybe that'll help.

[secretly_secret]

What the heck is a stress ball?

I'm broke sorta...trying to save up for a curling iron...

[Jupiter]

Or just rip papers, scream into a pillow, etc. I wanna be a social worker when I grow up, just talk to me if you want to.

[secretly_secret]

I'd PM you, Eric, but I don't have enough posts. I don't know...what to do.....If i scream into a pillow my younger siblings will want to know why, same as if I rip papers. I am babysitting....

[Jupiter]

Maybe you should talk to your mom about it. Have you tried?

[StoppingTime]

My mom just left to go to the gym.
With my cousins.
As usual.
She (and everyone else in my family) always treats them better than me!

I know that their parents are divorced and stuff, but I always get all this crap about "oh they had a bad childhood" and "oh they work soooo hard" when I do twice as much work as both of them combined!

Really really want to cut. But I've been trying not to.

Help please, anyone that's online! :(

This can always be hard. You are seen as more fortunate, so you are automatically disregarded. Don't let it get to you though. How often do you see them, and what is your relationship with them (good, bad etc...) If they are in your life a lot, and this happens daily, it is a definite problem. If they come a few times a month, and it doesn't get worse, I would try to let it slide. Cutting won't help, it will make things worse. I am really happy to hear that you aren't cutting, that's great!

[secretly_secret]

Oh, GOD I can't tell my mom.:blue:
Such a scary thought.

[StoppingTime]

Oh, GOD I can't tell my mom.:blue:
Such a scary thought.

Do you have anyone you really trust who you can?

[Jupiter]

^^ what he said.

[secretly_secret]

I told one friend when I used to cut...no. she'd tell her mom...my parents would be told...

I'm on the edge of tears and despair...
Can't cry...can't cry...watching siblings, can't cry....

Stop it Hannah, don't cut...don't cut....just cry....

Can't cry....can't cry....

[Jupiter]

Go to the bathroom and let the tears flow. It's okay.

[StoppingTime]

I told one friend when I used to cut...no. she'd tell her mom...my parents would be told...

I'm on the edge of tears and despair...
Can't cry...can't cry...watching siblings, can't cry....

Stop it Hannah, don't cut...don't cut....just cry....

Can't cry....can't cry....

Stay on here for now. Crying is great if you are alone, but since you can't right now stay here. Get help from us, we are always here to help.


And how often do you see your cousins?

[secretly_secret]

No I can't...oh God and now I'm crying...I'll be back.

[secretly_secret]

Okay, I'm okay, I'm okay...
I think I'm okay now.

And now my siblings are screaming at each other. Excuse me...

[Jupiter]

its okay. you are excused. but you get more alone time. i envy you.

[secretly_secret]

My cousins live with us. Their parents are divorced and lost their house.

[StoppingTime]

My cousins live with us. Their parents are divorced and lost their house.

OK. Then this is a problem. I know what you mean when you say they think they have an excuse, but it isn't valid. They did go through bad times, but so are you, right now because of it. If there is anyone you really trust, try to get it out to them. Any true friend will be able to help you.

Good Luck!
~Steven/StoppingTime

[Jupiter]

just as soon as you get 100 posts, talk to me through pm, okay? this is really important.

[secretly_secret]

Thanks so much, both of you. Please keep talking; I feel alone.

[Jupiter]

okay, you can post on our walls, because we are not supposed to get......
:offtopic:
damn, i love that emoticon.

[secretly_secret]

Well, there is this one boy I know...;) That I really like...:rolleyes:
Maybe I could tell him. I never have because I was scared he would tell his mom. Or dad.

Oh GOD. Nevermind. If he told his dad....Oh God.

[Jupiter]

just talk to me on my wall, k??

[secretly_secret]

I did I think...why aren't you answering????

[secretly_secret]

Why am I feeling like this....

I'm aching all over.
I feel like nothing is happening.
I just feel not anywhere right now.

[Jupiter]

im not sure, but be careful not to double post, okay? just hit the edit button :) you can get in trouble :P

[secretly_secret]

I double posted? Oops. Sorry :P

[Jupiter]

:) i meant you put 2 posts right after eachother..

[AppealToReason]

I did I think...why aren't you answering????

I believe visitor messages have to be approved by a mod before they show up on his wall until a certain post count , so it can take awhile sometimes.

[StoppingTime]

Yea. It doesn't matter as long as you stop. (No backseat modding Eric :)).

Anyway, could you talk to a school counselor about it?
Stay on here too.

Same with me, when you get to 100, feel free to PM me.

[secretly_secret]

oooohhh. They don't let you do that? :-/

[Jupiter]

^^ yepp :offtopic:

[Nicky-Indra]

hey guys, i am a undergraduate psychology student and am currently doing my dissertation on self-harm. i would be mega greatful if you guys could fill in the following survey for me to help me with my project. please know that i will treat all information you give confidentially and wont ask for your names or contact details. thx sooo much, xx Nicky-Indra

link to survey:

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[secretly_secret]

hey guys, i am a undergraduate psychology student and am currently doing my dissertation on self-harm. i would be mega greatful if you guys could fill in the following survey for me to help me with my project. please know that i will treat all information you give confidentially and wont ask for your names or contact details. thx sooo much, xx Nicky-Indra

link to survey:

http://www.surveymonkey.com/s/TD3WQ9K

This is too triggering. Sorry.

[ReasonsForWeeping]

im glad ur moving forward :3

[secretly_secret]

Yes, I'm doing okay. :]