It's getting worse.

[Ironic Infidel In England]

I'm not sure whether this should be here or in cutting and self harm as suicide. Move if you think I am wrong.

I have Split Personality Disorder. Up until recently, (a few months ago) I could cope. I was always in control. But in the last week, I have gone downhill rapidly. I am now in control barely 9/10 of the time. I know that might not sound bad, but if I lose control when people are around, He will start attempting to kill them. I have made him promise not to hurt my family, but can't extend this protection further, not even to my closest freinds.

I am now getting to think that everone would be safer without me around. I tried to kill myself when it started, but no luck. I need ideas as to what I can do. (By the way, I have given up on my psycologist as she didn't believe that I had this.) At the moment whenever I feel this way I will ring up freinds and talk, but that is hard because of the stuff going on at home. Any ideas are welcome.

[Maverick]

Talk to your doctor/psychiatrist. Call his or her office and tell him how you feel. You need professional advice.

[Sapphire]

Anthony's right, you need professional help.

[Bobby]

As said before, get help.

Are you on any medication?

[Ironic Infidel In England]

No, no medication. I wish I was, I need some help with this. I'm trying to get professianal help, but I'm worried that they'll tell my parents like my old one threatened (sp?) to do.

[Bobby]

You don't think your parents would try and help you through this?

[Ironic Infidel In England]

My mum thinks that people with mental illnesses are sub-human. My dad hates anyone who isn't perfect in his eyes. So in short, I'm fairly sure they wouldn't help me at all.

[Bobby]

What about anyone in your extended family, an aunt or uncle. Either way you should still go to a phycologist or conselor.

[schrei jess]

Even though you said they would see you as "sub-human" and "imperfect", your best bet is to tell them. See your therapist and bring them to a session and have him/her talk to them about what is going on. If they hear it from the doctor instead of you, maybe they'll see that this is a real problem that needs medication and professional help. Im sorry I cant be of more help than this, but this is really your only option. You need to get some medication to help get this under control.

[Ironic Infidel In England]

I told my parents. My mum reacted much better than I thought, but my dad thinks I'm possesed.I'm glad I told them though, things can start to get better now.

[Maverick]

That's great! Best of luck to you.

[Everglow]

I'm so happy for you!! Telling your parents is the best thing in the world for you right now. It will open doors that you never thought existed..and some that you wished remained closed, but they will all help you get stronger and conquer your troubles!! You are growing so much and in such a positive way and that, Alex, makes me smile :)