I'm a mess

[HandheldOutlaw]

i'm not at all sure if this is the right place to post this.
i've not been on in so long..
my life has been crazy lately and i'm losing hope. i feel unappreciated, unloved, and unwelcome in my own home and my aunt and uncle never fail to rub it in my face that i'm there because they're good people and I could very well be somewhere else. they say i'm the only one of us (there are three other kids here besides me) that's grateful for what they've given us but i'm the one that gets yelled at and put down the most.
i do all of the cleaning, and most of the cooking. i'm doing well in school. yet nothing is good enough.
i've been overly emotional lately. i crumble over the smallest things. i've been having nightmares and flashbacks almost constantly and it's making it difficult to go to sleep or to stay awake. i've started cutting again and i just can't deal with this anymore.
i want to die.
i want it all to end.

[Amaryllis]

Sweetheart, people will try to put you down. It's difficult but know that this won't last forever. The pain and alienation you feel right now isn't going to be what follows you for the rest of your life. I'm not going to say life will go uphill but things do get better. If you choose to let it. Nothing hurts more than being hurt by your own family. You're amazing to still be alive. You've come too far to let it all go.

Life is made up of ups, downs and in-betweens. You will have moments when you're happy, when you just want to die and when you're just, okay. That's all part of learning and living. You'll grow stronger and you will make a better life for yourself.

Remember one last thing: No one can bring you down without your consent.

Love,
Faith and Trust

[Aragorn]

Don't give up! Just when things are at the worst, thats when things start to get better! As Dory would say, "Just keep swimming!"

[Tobias]

almost the same thing happend to me. my family hated me and my dad beated me up almost daily. i cried evrey night. but now i got over it with time. just try to avoid your family and be with your friends. when you want to cut yourself then read some jokes or something and try to laugh beacouse there is no need to die. its will all get better. also if you tell yourself that you can do it then you can do it.