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abdheuuuchjc
October 8th, 2011, 12:29 AM
As the title says i might end it tonite. The reason girl #10 over middle school now refuses to talk to me. The reason;I like the who. God I hate people sonetimes. I'm probably gonna cut myself tonite

Amaryllis
October 8th, 2011, 08:20 AM
Sweetheart, no girl is worth killing over. It may feel like the end of the world right now but believe me, it isn't. You will find someone else or maybe you won't but life goes on. It will take time and effort but it's worth it. Shooting and cutting doesn't help. Self-harm only gets worse. You will get to the point where your body is littered with scars that will hold you back and keep you from doing what you love.

A year from now, maybe less, maybe more, you will look back at this and be glad you didn't end your life over it. You're still a flower bud who has yet to bloom.(Did I just say that?) Move on. Cheer up, the worst is yet to come! <3

SosbanFach
October 8th, 2011, 08:28 AM
I hope I'm not too late to tell you that it doesn't have to be this way. That it won't always be this way, if you can make it otherwise, and it is only you who can change things. Please don't do this, not only for your sake, but for the sake of your friends and family; they don't want this. If you're feeling depressed, then you should talk about it, on this site, but also to friends, and professionals. They can help you to shape your life in the way that you want it. It won't be perfect, obviously. You can't change the fact that there will always be sadness, death, arseholes who just want to taunt you. These things will still exist, but if you can get on with your life, as you want to, it can be so much more. There is always a way to improve your life, it will always get better. I hope it does for you, and t will if you make it. Don't give up, for the sake of yourself and your loved ones.

As far as the girl goes, if she refuses to talk to you, then she's not worth your time. She doesn't deserve you. Move on, there will always be others, with better personalities than her.

Fushigi
October 8th, 2011, 08:55 AM
don't! there are lots of girls out there, i know it's really hard when someone refuses you. But it's not a reason to kill yourself. I'm sure you will find someone better than her. And hope you realize the importance of life.

Elenin
October 8th, 2011, 04:27 PM
There are plenty of girls out there. Why harm yourself because someone refused you? Eventually, you'll find "the one". Besides, there are other things you should focus on in life other than "getting the girl".

abdheuuuchjc
October 9th, 2011, 11:20 PM
Hey I still herE but in s.t.w.o.l.t.n. Mode

abdheuuuchjc
October 9th, 2011, 11:30 PM
I hav nothing to live for though. I'm in a band but were not that good and we change member daily

Stretch
October 10th, 2011, 03:36 AM
I hav nothing to live for though. I'm in a band but were not that good and we change member daily

Have you thought about trying new things? Maybe if you can find something you enjoy, you will likely feel way better! Have you thought about maybe making your own band, or talking to your band about the frequent changes? I think you need to take control of YOUR life, and try new things :)

Amaryllis
October 10th, 2011, 04:27 AM
I hav nothing to live for though.

Live for the future. Live for the possibility of happiness. Live for the chance that you may find someone worth living for. Live because you've already gone this far. Live because you only live once. You don't get second chances at life, you have this lifetime to make it big, you have one chance to make this life worth it. Live for the moments where you are happy.

Live because you can.

Rubber
October 10th, 2011, 03:13 PM
Worse thing to kill yourself over- A Girl.
Its just not worth it to go crazy over it. Just move on, live on.

Jupiter
October 10th, 2011, 03:15 PM
Things get better, I promise. I bet we were all there, and back. We're all fine. Just live day to day:)

Brokeandbetrayed
October 10th, 2011, 03:28 PM
Don't hurt or kill yourself please. No girl is worth dying over no matter what they do. I use to want to do the same thing but then I realized it just is not worth it. So bud, please don't do anything that will hurt yourself or worse. It will get better eventually :)

abdheuuuchjc
October 10th, 2011, 10:31 PM
It's not a girl it's every girl every girl ecking hates me

Jupiter
October 10th, 2011, 10:34 PM
STOP EVERYONE! before we go on.. what does ecking mean?

secretly_secret
October 10th, 2011, 10:50 PM
Dictionary.com
No dictionary results. That was a funny comment, Eric. No offense. I just thought it funny.

Funkapotamus
October 10th, 2011, 10:56 PM
STOP EVERYONE! before we go on.. what does ecking mean?

A non expletive way of saying "fucking"? Not so sure nowadays.

Girls come and go and at the moment I'm as lonely as you are. I've got a girlfriend but it just doesn't feel like she's my world anymore and I thought she was the one. When you have someone for so long and love someone so deeply and then one day that river stops, your insides feel like they are about to cave in.

You will never be alone forever and don't let that thought linger because that's what eats us to this point. You've got your best years ahead of you and still have a whole lot of potential in this crazy game we call "love".

In the meanwhile, get your band sorted. I've been in multiple bands that have all gone down in flames due to relationships or non-committal members, and all I can say is that a band situation will improve if two or more of it's members want it to.
Is it the members who have been with you from the beginning that are leaving or just people coming in and leaving?

If you want anything else I'm here for the long haul :)

abdheuuuchjc
October 10th, 2011, 11:27 PM
STOP EVERYONE! before we go on.. what does ecking mean?
Ecking is a substiute for fucking when ur on a site ur parents are On like Facebook it's a habit for me now

abdheuuuchjc
October 10th, 2011, 11:29 PM
A non expletive way of saying "fucking"? Not so sure nowadays.

Girls come and go and at the moment I'm as lonely as you are. I've got a girlfriend but it just doesn't feel like she's my world anymore and I thought she was the one. When you have someone for so long and love someone so deeply and then one day that river stops, your insides feel like they are about to cave in.

You will never be alone forever and don't let that thought linger because that's what eats us to this point. You've got your best years ahead of you and still have a whole lot of potential in this crazy game we call "love".
In the meanwhile, get your band sorted. I've been in multiple bands that have all gone down in flames due to relationships or non-committal members, and all I can say is that a band situation will improve if two or more of it's
members want it to.
Is it the members who have been with you from the beginning that are leaving or just people coming in and leaving?


If you want anything else I'm here for the long haul :)Truth is girls never like me and never will im not the gd guy ecking girls I want all this shite just to fucking stop

Funkapotamus
October 10th, 2011, 11:45 PM
Truth is girls never like me and never will im not the gd guy ecking girls I want all this shite just to fucking stop

Dude, you're being far too harsh on your self and way to impatient. This shit takes time to develop. There are people in this abysmal world that don't get a single partner even for a day until they are like 25 or sometimes later. But when that someone comes, you and I both know she'll be amazing and you'll be over the moon you waited. Like I said the best ecking years are ahead of you and what's the point of ending it before you see if it works out? It's like you've waited for christmas all year round and then it gets to November and you're like "fuck it, it's taking to long, probably won't get that shit anyway". Just put yourself out there and be completely yourself, not anyone you imagine might be appealing o the damned opposite sex. There is a women out there for every type of personality, look, style, IQ, interest and so on. If you've failed with someone, then that someone was not destined for you, it wouldn't have been genuine. Just wait.

abdheuuuchjc
October 10th, 2011, 11:51 PM
The only girl that has ever talked to me for over ten minutes is dating my bestfriend who doesn't care about here no where near as much as I do

Funkapotamus
October 11th, 2011, 02:18 AM
Ok I get you, I've been in exactly the same position, but man, I cannot stress this enough, there are far more better things in life to worry about than girls especially at your age. A life for a girl isn't not equal.

abdheuuuchjc
October 11th, 2011, 01:02 PM
It sucks having so much ecking potential my aunt calls me Matt Damon (good will hunting)

Funkapotamus
October 11th, 2011, 10:43 PM
It sucks having so much ecking potential my aunt calls me Matt Damon (good will hunting)

See there you go! You even know yourself that you have potential and I reckon you've unlocked some of it already. You just had to be patient with this kind of stuff. You can't expect everything you want to come about the moment you feel you need it. But it also helps to put yourself into practice. You'll do fine buddy.

snow661
October 11th, 2011, 10:51 PM
IT IS SSSSSSSSSOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO NOT WORTH IT IN THE LONG RUN, YOU WILL FIND A GIRL SOON, TRUST ME, IT TAKES TIME AND PATIENCE!!!!!!!!!!!! I really hope you see what these people have to say, IT WILL ONLY GET BETTER!!!!!!!! I AM TELLING YOU FROM SELF EXPERIENCE!!!!! Worst comes to worst, transfer schools and make new freinds! :)

JohnHoper
October 11th, 2011, 10:54 PM
People are always gonna hurt others. You just gotta find that right ones to suffer the most for. Hurting yourself now is only gonna mean you're just giving up, you're stopping yourself from trying. There are people who love you, so chillax and just wait because things will aways get better, but only if you want it to.

abdheuuuchjc
October 11th, 2011, 11:10 PM
No no one lIves me

Funkapotamus
October 11th, 2011, 11:37 PM
Okay dude, I'm going to leave you with this. And believe me this is 100% true.

If nobody loved, liked or even cared about you, then why would we be staying with you through this? Why would we be pointing out the qualities we know you have and the qualities you know you have but are obviously in denial about having.
Right down 5 things you think your okay/good at and put a single easy to reach goal next to each one of them. Focus on those and you'll realise that not only are you good at something, but all these negative vibes you're getting are merely fiction. They don't exist. Time will pass by quicker than you think and if you constantly linger on those haters, you're going to miss your own train.

Of course you can do it. Anyone willing is able to achieve the world.

bakrb448
October 11th, 2011, 11:48 PM
Rejection and/or being crushed by your crushed: probably the hardest times i have had this summer.
But hey, im still here, and still looking for "the one"
(big thanks to Jo, Sean, Jon and Z [and anyone i missed] for helping me keep most of my sanity)

abdheuuuchjc
October 12th, 2011, 12:31 AM
People keep telling me "it will get better" but I've been getting that since the third grade when is the miracle happiness gonna come up... Truth is I have a better chance of finding the fountain of youth then being happy with my life

abdheuuuchjc
October 12th, 2011, 12:32 AM
Okay dude, I'm going to leave you with this. And believe me this is 100% true.

If nobody loved, liked or even cared about you, then why would we be staying with you through this? Why would we be pointing out the qualities we know you have and the qualities you know you have but are obviously in denial about having.
Right down 5 things you think your okay/good at and put a single easy to reach goal next to each one of them. Focus on those and you'll realise that not only are you good at something, but all these negative vibes you're getting are merely fiction. They don't exist. Time will pass by quicker than you think and if you constantly linger on those haters, you're going to miss your own train.

Of course you can do it. Anyone willing is able to achieve the world.I cant think of 5 things I'm good at cause I'm a fail at life my own dad has said that to me on multiple occasions

abdheuuuchjc
October 12th, 2011, 12:34 AM
See there you go! You even know yourself that you have potential and I reckon you've unlocked some of it already. You just had to be patient with this kind of stuff. You can't expect everything you want to come about the moment you feel you need it. But it also helps to put yourself into practice. You'll do fine buddy.

If a tv show has potential to be funny that doesn't stop it from being canceled potential is just shit that might happen. I have as much potential of finding el dorado as I do having some girl like me

abdheuuuchjc
October 12th, 2011, 12:39 AM
Okay dude, I'm going to leave you with this. And believe me this is 100% true.

If nobody loved, liked or even cared about you, then why would we be staying with you through this? Why would we be pointing out the qualities we know you have and the qualities you know you have but are obviously in denial about having.
Right down 5 things you think your okay/good at and put a single easy to reach goal next to each one of them. Focus on those and you'll realise that not only are you good at something, but all these negative vibes you're getting are merely fiction. They don't exist. Time will pass by quicker than you think and if you constantly linger on those haters, you're going to miss your own train.

Of course you can do it. Anyone willing is able to achieve the world.I'm sorry but being cared about by someone I've never met whose on the Internet doesn't mean people in general care about me

Funkapotamus
October 12th, 2011, 02:29 AM
I'm sorry but being cared about by someone I've never met whose on the Internet doesn't mean people in general care about me

You know the reason why I'm doing this man? Why I'm really trying to help you out here? It's because I know exactly where you're coming from. "But how does random kid on the internet who doesn't know me, care about me?". Because from reading what you've written, I know exactly what you're going through and I sure as hell know no one else on this whole damned planet (minus us VT's of course) knows what you're going through, right? So why not tell them? Why not see if they empathise with you? Because they wouldn't get you, they'd call you some low name, squeal on you?

Man, I have felt every emotion, every word you've said in these last 3 years of my life. I fell out with friends I knew since primary school. Every last one of them. I got addicted to shit and got so damn thin people thought I was either being starved or couldn't get food. But I was thin because I rarely had an appetite due to my vices. So people started looking at me sideways all the time. I've had a best friend spread the worst kind of rumours, making a whole new group of friends who I thought I would know for a long time, turn against me. I'd be invited to places just so they could tell new people who'd never met me, who and what kind of person they thought I was.

I've had my parents both shun me because of my addictions and my dad is a slight racist and homophobe who says that if I were to come out bi or gay I would be shamed from the family and never looked at again.

I'm at a job at the moment where when I started, a kid started the same time and I let slip that I came from a place where his best friends were amongst the group I hung out with. The next day he came back, said he'd spoke to them about his new job and me and that same day, everyone in that job began staring at me with blind hatred and they would all label me "The c**t". A new guy started recently there and he came up to me with a smug look on his face and said "I'm glad people like you are around, so that us new guys know who the bad people are". And I hadn't even spoken to the guy before.

Oh and my girlfriend and I of 3 years are near the end of our relationship.

The list goes on, believe me, but I've said far more than you'll probably care to read anyway, so I'll bring it in.

After most of this shit happened to me I thought there was no one on this planet, who would ever care, maybe even celebrate if I were to just die. NO ONE. My grandfathers heart tablets had been brought the day before and there were loads. I popped about 20 or so out and poured myself a whiskey tumbler. I was literally a hand full of overdose away from ending my pain. But I didn't. Why? because I reflected one last time and dug deep deep deep down and remembered something I heard about "The world stretches further than your backyard". I've had dreams and ambitions and I haven't really explored outside of my comfort area to which there might be a person I have never met who I might actually get along with.

And guess what, I've come to one of the few places that I'm on right now, with people who are suffering from the exact same despairs as me. And the more I help the more I answer my own questions aswell as helping others which makes me feel like my life is actually worth something.

"People in general don't like me". What do you want? Every passer by to look up at you and smile. Make easy conversation and talk to you? Ask you how you're feeling? The world and society doesn't work like that. You've got to open first. If you smile at someone, they'll smile back. Sometimes they won't, who cares, move on. Theres people who are best friends just from talking online and they sometimes don't have any friends physically present. But they work around it. There's always a way. WHEN YOU CHANGE THE WAY YOU LOOK AT THINGS, THE THINGS YOU LOOK AT CHANGE. Simple fact. Speaks volumes.

People are narrow-minded and ignorant and can be really dense when it comes to sharing feelings, but most of the time it's because they're too occupied with their own problems to connect with someone else. Now you can continue your defeatist attitude and get no-where or you can actually literally move forward and defiantly, one hundred percent accomplish something. Prove those people who hurt you wrong.

abdheuuuchjc
October 12th, 2011, 02:10 PM
That's deep

ryantombs
October 12th, 2011, 08:56 PM
hes right broski,
i feel as if no one in person cares for me but i know i can go to practically any one on this site and vent and rant and ask them for advice on anything and i want them to know it too

just gotta remember there are people out there maybe not your neighbor but someone somewhere cares, always.
were here for you buddy any time day or night that guy is right

abdheuuuchjc
October 12th, 2011, 09:02 PM
That doesn't change the fact i wanna blow my brains out

DerBear
October 13th, 2011, 04:53 AM
There are lots of opertunites in this world for happiness for fun and love just because it is not working now does not mean it wont work out in the future. Most of us go through our lives with some degree or stage of sadness and deppresion but most of us look as the effects of our actions on loved ones and friends. You need to focus on your happy place.

Think to the future and forget about the present, only you can make your life better.

Also can I just say. There are plenty of women out there in the world.

abdheuuuchjc
October 13th, 2011, 01:52 PM
People have been telling me life's gonna get better for years

JohnHoper
October 15th, 2011, 01:06 AM
You wanna blow your brains out... well, so does 2 other billion teens out there somewhere in this world. Some people have never even felt the touch of comfort or love. Some people don't even have others to help them, even over the Internet! Kids put through being in hell and I MEAN REAL HELL, AS IN no food for weeks at a time, hard labor, no roof/shelter/water, being repeatedly raped or taken advantage of by parents, being used as practically slaves... they can want to blow their brains out. But most don't because the find a significance and continued hope for a future. For you to bring yourself down to such a self-undermining state is very arrogant. Be sad and hate yourself all you want but just know the one who's always been with you is... Yourself. Don't treat him like hes been nothing.

Funkapotamus
October 15th, 2011, 02:08 AM
You wanna blow your brains out... well, so does 2 other billion teens out there somewhere in this world. Some people have never even felt the touch of comfort or love. Some people don't even have others to help them, even over the Internet! Kids put through being in hell and I MEAN REAL HELL, AS IN no food for weeks at a time, hard labor, no roof/shelter/water, being repeatedly raped or taken advantage of by parents, being used as practically slaves... they can want to blow their brains out. But most don't because the find a significance and continued hope for a future. For you to bring yourself down to such a self-undermining state is very arrogant. Be sad and hate yourself all you want but just know the one who's always been with you is... Yourself. Don't treat him like hes been nothing.

This ^ = 10000000000000000000

abdheuuuchjc
October 16th, 2011, 12:40 AM
Bye all

Funkapotamus
October 16th, 2011, 01:16 AM
Dude. Such a waste. You're being ignorant of the feelings of others towards you. Those that care and those that want to get to know you. Why not stay a while and share your good experiences rather than constantly dwell on the harsh side of life? How do you know that what's on the other side isn't worse than what you are enduring here?

I don't know what this "Goodbye All" means, because it could mean a lot. Anyway pm me, I could do with a nice chat and so could you!

abdheuuuchjc
October 16th, 2011, 01:28 AM
Check ur inbox

Cole881
October 16th, 2011, 10:43 AM
Dont do it man, no person is worth a life!

secretly_secret
October 16th, 2011, 05:34 PM
Do not do this. Please. It's not worth it.

abdheuuuchjc
October 16th, 2011, 09:38 PM
Better die now then suffer for years

secretly_secret
October 16th, 2011, 09:52 PM
Oh c'mon. You don't need to kill yourself for a girl.

Jupiter
October 16th, 2011, 10:00 PM
Exactly. You shouldn't do this, I mean... really.. is it worth giving your life up for a girl who would prolly only lead to heart break in the end?

abdheuuuchjc
October 16th, 2011, 10:04 PM
No it's not... But every girl I kno expt one whos dating my bro hates me and thanks enough

Jupiter
October 16th, 2011, 10:10 PM
nah, its all cool. it gets better.

abdheuuuchjc
October 16th, 2011, 10:13 PM
I've be told that for years

Jupiter
October 16th, 2011, 10:16 PM
It really does

secretly_secret
October 16th, 2011, 10:17 PM
There's so much more to life than just girls. (and ladies, I mean dating. I'm not insulting our sex. :P) Seriously.

abdheuuuchjc
October 16th, 2011, 10:21 PM
It's not just that my dads and alcoholic and hates me and my mom smokes two packs a day. I'm an outsider at school. So, besides love family and friends(or lack of) what do I hav to live for

Jupiter
October 16th, 2011, 10:22 PM
my dad is also an alcoholic. my mom also smokes. its okay...

abdheuuuchjc
October 16th, 2011, 10:25 PM
Both of my parents hate me. My dad cause I'm not joining the army and my mom cause I don't live up to her expectations

Jupiter
October 16th, 2011, 10:26 PM
oh well. who cares what they think?

abdheuuuchjc
October 16th, 2011, 10:30 PM
Life's hard when nobody likes u

secretly_secret
October 16th, 2011, 10:56 PM
There'll be a person who'll be worth living for soon. I'm sure of it.

abdheuuuchjc
October 16th, 2011, 10:59 PM
The only person I'm living for I'm in love with and Is dating my best friend

secretly_secret
October 16th, 2011, 10:59 PM
C'mon. I'm sure you can get someone soon.

abdheuuuchjc
October 16th, 2011, 11:01 PM
No I can't her and my best friend are the only people who like me at all and they live 8hours away

abdheuuuchjc
October 17th, 2011, 08:24 PM
Another bad day!! FML

Jupiter
October 17th, 2011, 08:29 PM
it gets better

abdheuuuchjc
October 17th, 2011, 09:10 PM
I'm done just fucking done

abdheuuuchjc
October 17th, 2011, 09:24 PM
It's been a pleasure meeting u guys and sorry funk and Tom that we didn't get to say goodbye via pm

secretly_secret
October 17th, 2011, 09:37 PM
Stop it. Right now. You are not doing this.

Jupiter
October 17th, 2011, 09:44 PM
no you arent.

abdheuuuchjc
October 17th, 2011, 09:45 PM
Why shouldn't I? theres no one in my life who I care about enough to live for

Jupiter
October 17th, 2011, 09:47 PM
so the fuck what? its all okay. girls blow anyway, at this age, anyway, what do they matter for besides for friends?

abdheuuuchjc
October 17th, 2011, 09:49 PM
I hav one friend and he lives 8 hours away. No one in my family loves me my stepdad fucking dared me to

Jupiter
October 17th, 2011, 09:50 PM
dared you to what?

abdheuuuchjc
October 17th, 2011, 09:52 PM
Kill myself. I said ur gonna miss me when I'm dead and he said u don't even hav the balls to do it

Jupiter
October 17th, 2011, 09:53 PM
don't do it, please. you have too much to live for. LIVE FOR THE FUTURE! YOU GOT THIS, BRAH! PROMISE ME YOU WON'T DO IT!

abdheuuuchjc
October 17th, 2011, 09:55 PM
What Do I hav to live for? My bestfriend probably won't miss me my parents probably won't even give me a funeral

Jupiter
October 17th, 2011, 09:57 PM
What Do I hav to live for? My bestfriend probably won't miss me my parents probably won't even give me a funeral

"You never know what you got till it's gone."
VT people will miss you. That's a lot of people right there.

abdheuuuchjc
October 17th, 2011, 09:58 PM
Truth is u guys are the closest I hav to family

Jupiter
October 17th, 2011, 09:59 PM
That's good, you found us. Looks like it was about time. Please don't do this. Don't make your VT family upset, and cry. Don't... please.. you mean too much to us.

abdheuuuchjc
October 17th, 2011, 10:00 PM
I'm not a help to anyone

Jupiter
October 17th, 2011, 10:00 PM
Not yet, when you become more experienced, you can help people, like how I am.

spires
October 17th, 2011, 10:04 PM
look man killing ur self wats it going to solve not a damn thing. theres plenty of girls out there aight u have a broken heart thats under standable but dood come on killing ur self think bout it wats it going to solve u just going to give pain to every one else around u.

abdheuuuchjc
October 17th, 2011, 10:04 PM
My problem is I can't apply myself no matter how hard I try. In 20 years I'm gonna have some deadend shot job just like my dad

Jupiter
October 17th, 2011, 10:05 PM
no you wont. you have something better to live up for. to be better than. please, stay with us:)

abdheuuuchjc
October 17th, 2011, 10:07 PM
look man killing ur self wats it going to solve not a damn thing. theres plenty of girls out there aight u have a broken heart thats under standable but dood come on killing ur self think bout it wats it going to solve u just going to give pain to every one else around u.

If I kill myself my problems will go away

Jupiter
October 17th, 2011, 10:09 PM
no they wont.

abdheuuuchjc
October 17th, 2011, 10:09 PM
no you wont. you have something better to live up for. to be better than. please, stay with us:)

If I'm lucky Ill be the best burger flipper at the Wendy's I work at

abdheuuuchjc
October 17th, 2011, 10:10 PM
no they wont.

What problems does a dead guy have??

Jupiter
October 17th, 2011, 10:10 PM
stop this right now. you are gonna be fine, its all good. look at the bright side!!

abdheuuuchjc
October 17th, 2011, 10:11 PM
What brightside??? Where is a fucking brightside??

Jupiter
October 17th, 2011, 10:12 PM
that at least you were born. goodnight. stop pretending dude, this is the life. we arent dying.. we are all good. juse be thankful.

abdheuuuchjc
October 17th, 2011, 10:16 PM
I'm so sorry

Jupiter
October 17th, 2011, 10:17 PM
we can all go to sleep, we can all forget this happened. or you could kill yourself, and have everyone on here be so depressed. that's not cool man. that's kinda selfish, too.

ryantombs
October 17th, 2011, 10:17 PM
why kill yourself your only a damn kid. yu havent even gotten to life yet really never experienced some great things like the day yu get your license and you can drive where ever thats such a great feeling and fine let people dare you to do stuff who cares. people make fun of me cuz i have a brand new mustang thats limited to 80 mph do yu think i care. no. listen bro do what makes you happy in life. my happiness is paintball and working hard to buy myself something in the end. i worked 7 yrs for my car i got it. im already onto my next goal a new corvette in 9 yrs i am happy making money some like math and sports i like money and show your step dad yu are stronger then he will ever imagine to be. its not the exterior that counts its the interior your heart and mind if you believe in yourself the world is yours buddy. cuz dont you want the day when it comes to say no im not gonna kill myself because i am stronger then a insecure little immature adult harrassing a freaking teenager. and you call yourself a step dad and a adult psh get out of my life i dont need you im stronger then you ever can be. bro push past it times are tough and they will prob get tougher but 1) when you conquer your problems life will be greater then it ever has been and 2) you can tell yourself you succeeded and you can come back onto this forum and be like bogumil and help other people.
we love you bro always
Love,
Ryan Tombs

abdheuuuchjc
October 17th, 2011, 10:30 PM
Ya know its easier to give advice when it's not ur life. U guys can say how much potential I hav but u guys don't live the same life as me

secretly_secret
October 17th, 2011, 10:33 PM
<3<3<3<3<3<3 I have to go do homework, but know this.
We love you. If you leave us, it will just go worse. For EVERYBODY.

abdheuuuchjc
October 17th, 2011, 10:36 PM
What benefit do I hav tO this site. My rep is -94 so it's not that I'm well liked

secretly_secret
October 17th, 2011, 10:39 PM
Stop it. Stop putting yourself down. Somewhere inside you, there is joy. Find it.

abdheuuuchjc
October 17th, 2011, 10:44 PM
I've never been happy with my life

My stepdad was right I don't hav the balls to do it

Please do not double post, use the edit button- Fiction

IcarusLives
October 18th, 2011, 01:02 AM
....What benefit don't you have to living....

I don't give a fuck about life either, we're on the same page here. DIFFERENCE:

YOU DIE: ENDLESS NOTHING.

YOU DON'T: LIFE...

True, for all we know it could be a shitty ass life that continues on the way it's going, or it could not be.

Fact is you never know, and I don't much give a fuck for anyone anymore, so I can speak completely impartially in terms of emotions. Here we go:

Killing yourself is the dumbest possible idea you could have... Plain and simple (Wow what a douchebag seeing as his signature is "Still suicidal I am".. Yeah I know, hear me out though...). The reason why:

Right now, if you're like me, you're about 99.9999999999999999999999999999999999999999999% sure that your life is either going to stay like it is, or get worse.

Problem is, despite the fact that every new day DOES seem to only get shittier for me, technically speaking, neither for us know for SURE whether or not it will or won't. There's always that little 0.000000000000000000000000000000000001% of doubt.

If I was 100% certain my life was going to stay this way, I'd kill myself right now, plain and simple.

Problem is, I'm not. And neither are you.

Happy?

Neither am I. Give it time though, otherwise you'll never be, and that's all you're promising yourself in not doing so.

Thanks for reading this Ethan. Fuck everybody who speaks down to you, it's called projection.

EDIT:

By the way, if you read this and still kill yourself, that means that the only philosophies that keep me, the most suicidally depressed person I've ever met alive, don't actually work. I don't want an exception to my logic... Definitely not what I'm looking for from these forums...

That would just be *so* fucking uplifting.........

Just saying.......

abdheuuuchjc
October 18th, 2011, 09:21 PM
I'm alive

Jupiter
October 18th, 2011, 09:22 PM
You are a person. You deserve life just like the rest of us. I'm glad you stayed with us :)

abdheuuuchjc
October 18th, 2011, 09:24 PM
Wish I could say the same

Jupiter
October 18th, 2011, 09:26 PM
You can. Smile all day tomorrow. That's what I did today, I felt great!

abdheuuuchjc
October 18th, 2011, 09:27 PM
I hav a shitty smile but my smirk is ok

Jupiter
October 18th, 2011, 09:28 PM
just smile.

abdheuuuchjc
October 18th, 2011, 09:30 PM
Hey I'm getting a dog that's kinda cool

Jupiter
October 18th, 2011, 09:31 PM
Yay! post pictures of it:) when you get it! You can talk to that dog when you need to. It'll listen.

Slytherin_Prince
October 18th, 2011, 09:32 PM
That course of action is inadvisable.
There is no need for self-harming over something like another person.
You're worth much more than that.

Most sincerely,
Robert.

abdheuuuchjc
October 18th, 2011, 09:32 PM
Thanks Robert and bogmil I will make sure to

Jupiter
October 18th, 2011, 09:34 PM
well, just wait. things will get better.

abdheuuuchjc
October 18th, 2011, 09:35 PM
I hope so

secretly_secret
October 18th, 2011, 09:40 PM
You're good with these people, Ethan. You're safe. You're fine. Just tackle the world, one day at a time. And you'll make it. :)

abdheuuuchjc
October 18th, 2011, 09:44 PM
I'm good with these people cause I'm on the computer I hav a horrible stutter and an accent

secretly_secret
October 18th, 2011, 09:49 PM
Really? What kind of accent?

abdheuuuchjc
October 18th, 2011, 09:52 PM
Scotish. My neighbor(who babysat me when I was little) was from Edinburg and I was learning to talk just when she started babysitting so I guess I just picked up a Scottish accent from her

secretly_secret
October 18th, 2011, 10:01 PM
C'mon. That's cute. :)

abdheuuuchjc
October 18th, 2011, 10:26 PM
But I stutter really bad

Fiction
October 19th, 2011, 06:14 AM
This thread has it's answer now, and is turning into a conversation. Conversations are for VM and PM messages, not threads. Please carry these on elsewhere.

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