Lost

[SinisterMystery]

Two weeks ago my parents found out about everything. The cutting, the suicidal thoughts, and how I felt about myself and everything around me. It's been great being able to talk to them because they are so supportive and caring but I still don't feel much better. Not feeling better when they are trying so hard to help me is making me feel so guilty. I havn't self harmed since the 27th of last month and it's getting to me. I've tried so many distractions but none have worked and I fall into this state where I can't move pretty much at all. My mum and dad have said that when I feel like hurting myself I need to talk to them but it's hard, I feel like I scare them or something.
Sorry for making the post so long, I just can't make that more simple. I'm lost.

[StoppingTime]

Well congratulations first of all, congrats on being cut free!

I can't speak from experience, but anyway....

It is great that your parents are supporting you, and not the opposite. They are just trying to be helpful. I don't think you'd scare them when talking to them instead of cutting, I think they'd much rather have you do that. You shouldn't feel guilt about it, it is an extremely hard urge to control, and I'm sure they understand that. As you probably know, distractions work best. Do anything you like to do to keep your mind off it. Try to spend time with your family (do you have siblings?) and your friends. Also, if you hod have a really close friend, and you think she would understand you, maybe you could tell her about your situation. Friends are great at handling things like this, but only do this if your confident that they will be OK with it, you don't want to break a friendship.


Good Luck with everything!
~StoppingTime/Steve

[SinisterMystery]

Thank you for answering so fast.
I have a sister that I spend time with but since she found out she has been a little 'on edge' when I'm around her. I completely understand why but still...
I have a best friend (Ryan) that I talk to about it and he's great, he really helps. I just hate it a lot when my body like freezes and I sort of go into a trance.

[StoppingTime]

Thank you for answering so fast.
I have a sister that I spend time with but since she found out she has been a little 'on edge' when I'm around her. I completely understand why but still...
I have a best friend (Ryan) that I talk to about it and he's great, he really helps. I just hate it a lot when my body like freezes and I sort of go into a trance.

This is understandable. It is a touchy subject, and some people understand it better than others. You don't want to force people to understand, (which I'm sure you know) because that most likely will make it worse. Keep doing what you've been doing for the past couple of weeks, and you'll soon turn a week or two into months, years, and forever! You are doing great, nerve give up.

If you need anything, don't hesitate to contact just about anyone (myself included:)) here. This is a great place.

[SinisterMystery]

Thank you :hug: