Two weeks, but...

[Megson]

I am SO STRESSED this week. Everything and anything has been upsetting me. I have so many big tests coming up, projects to worry about, assignments due, no sleep, and the pressure of school.

I want to cut. Today is my two week mark, but I don't even care. I need to cut.

EDIT: I did it. I relapsed. I cut my uppper arm once and my leg about 5 times. Not too bad of a relapse....I used my new instrument. Hurts more, but cuts better.

But I feel like a failure now. Today was supposed to be my two week mark.

At least I found some band-aids...

[music is my soul]

If this doesnt help much sorry.

Just try to keep a mind set. Keep thinking just wait 5 more minutes. At the end of the 5 minutes just think i gotta wait 5 more minutes at the end of that 5 minutes the same thing. It should get you a mind set of not cutting. Then once you get used to that start thinkin 10 minutes, 15 minutes, 20 minutes and so on.

Hope this helps.

[AppealToReason]

You're not a failure, Megan. No one in this forum is. We only fail when we stop trying for good and give in to these addictions.
You made it to 13 days, so try and get 14 next time. Just making it one day means you have the potential to make it for one year if you try hard and don't let these little roadblocks hold you back.
Do you talk to anyone besides VT about these problems?

[Brighter.Tomorrow]

When I finally stopped cutting I had been cutting for 3years.
What got me to stop..
THere was a kid that I babysat for, he meant the world to me, I had stepped in as a parent figure for him because neither of his parents even tried. One day he saw the cuts and scars on my wrists, he laughed and called me clumsy. He then kissed my wrist and said "Kisses make everything better!" and made me promise to be more careful. It was hard, but I haven't cut since. I can't give you an exact date, but it's been over a year since I last cut.
You can do it. You're worth more then you give yourself credit for, and the cuts aren't worth it. Stay strong, and find something to hold onto and you'll make it.

[StoppingTime]

I am SO STRESSED this week. Everything and anything has been upsetting me. I have so many big tests coming up, projects to worry about, assignments due, no sleep, and the pressure of school.

I want to cut. Today is my two week mark, but I don't even care. I need to cut.

EDIT: I did it. I relapsed. I cut my uppper arm once and my leg about 5 times. Not too bad of a relapse....I used my new instrument. Hurts more, but cuts better.

But I feel like a failure now. Today was supposed to be my two week mark.

At least I found some band-aids...

Don't worry, that isn't a failure, its a small step toward complete success.
Probably 90+ percent of people who cut, don't stop immediately.
You've got nothing you need to feel bad about. Just try again, theres nothing wrong with that.
Do anything, spend time with family, friends, anything you like to do to get your mind off it.
Come here, everyone is always ready to help. It is going to be hard, but what's life without a challenge?
You can do it, stay strong :)


Good Luck
~StoppingTime/Steve